Thursday, December 31, 2015

December 31st

Dear Copper,

Writing you a morning note since I don't foresee myself being able to get in your last note of 2015 by midnight... Happy New Year and can't wait to see what 2016 will bring for us! I know we'll at least get married and buy a house next year!

Love,
Fox

Wednesday, December 30, 2015

December 30th

Dear Copper,

Thanks for taking me to get my car from the shop earlier :)

Love,
Fox

Tuesday, December 29, 2015

December 29th

Dear Copper,

Our offer on the "Strawberry home" was declined today with no counter, as we figured. Guess this means we will just have to keep looking until we find the right one. 

In other news, we received our first wedding gift today (our CrockPot from the Reeds)! Can't wait until we live together so we can have dinner together more than once or twice a week (even if it means me cooking, haha). Our wedding is getting closer! Ahhhhhh!

Love,
Fox

Monday, December 28, 2015

December 28th

Dear Copper,

We put our third offer on a home today, the "Strawberry (a.k.a steps) home." It's your dream home... complete with 30 steps. After looking at a few more duds today, I agreed to go in with you $29k under the asking price because I knew you'd always regret it if we didn't at least try and put some offer in. Here goes the waiting game again to see if they counter... You said you would help bring groceries in and carry our future kids upstairs, right?

Love,
Fox

Sunday, December 27, 2015

December 27th

Dear Copper,

Just a quick reminder to let you know that I love you and that you are very special to me :)

Love,
Fox 

December 26th

Dear Copper,

Even when you aren't with me, I still think about you.

Love,
Fox

Saturday, December 26, 2015

December 25th

Dear Copper,

It's our last Christmas before getting married! Can't believe it! One of these years we WILL spend a Christmas night together watching a holiday movie and snuggling... Until then, sweet dreams darling and Merry Christmas :)

Love,
Fox

Friday, December 25, 2015

December 24th

Dear Copper,

You tracked white powder through the hallway tonight (which you said was just shoe powder) and then right after you left my house, Google Santa Tracker said he was here in St. Louis. I KNEW IT, you're Santa! Since the jig is up, when can I quit my job and become Mrs. Claus?


Love you and Merry Christmas darling :) It seems like you were my Christmas wish just a few years back and now you are finally here!!!

Love,
Fox

Tuesday, December 22, 2015

December 22nd

Dear Copper,

You finished your meeting for work later than you thought tonight, but still stopped by on your way home for some snuggles and to help tuck me in bed. We only had about 45 minutes before I had to get ready for bed, but it was the best part of my entire day.

Love,
Fox

Monday, December 21, 2015

Sunday, December 20, 2015

December 20th

Dear Copper,

We put in another offer for a house today that seems absolutely perfect (literally everything we wanted in a home, down to the small details)... Here's hoping they accept our offer so we can begin our journey of being new homeowners!

Love,
Fox

Saturday, December 19, 2015

Friday, December 18, 2015

December 18th

Dear Copper,

You're just so sweet and caring. And I just love you so so much!

Love,
Fox

Thursday, December 17, 2015

December 17th

Dear Copper,

More looking at houses today... At one point when we were standing in the entry way to one of the homes and I looked over at you and thought, "Wow, how lucky am I to be with such a great guy!" I didn't want to say anything with your uncle standing there, so just thought I'd let you know now instead.

Love,
Fox 

Wednesday, December 16, 2015

December 16th

Dear Copper,

You're adorable, you and your big open eyes, your smile with the dimple on that one side, the way your hair sweeps over your face... Just so darn handsome! Mmmmhmmm...

Love,
Fox 

Tuesday, December 15, 2015

December 15th

Dear Copper,

It may drive me crazy sometimes when you ask me therapy-esque questions, but I'm sure it helps me in the long-run, so thanks.

Love,
Fox

Monday, December 14, 2015

December 14th

Dear Copper,

We made our first home offer today for the house on Capri... With no success. But if we are going to be bought out, it's by the people ready to put over $50k down on the home upfront. We WILL find our perfect house, we'll just have to keep looking... Our humble abode exists, we just need to find it!

Love,
Fox

December 13th

Dear Copper,

(Written 12/14 since my phone died last night...)

We looked at our first set of homes today, some good, some alright... Can't believe this is finally happening!

Love,
Fox

Saturday, December 12, 2015

December 12th

Dear Copper,

No idea what made me think of this (I'm on a run right now), but if we ever go on The Amazing Race, our name should be the #LeemTeam...

Love,
Fox

Friday, December 11, 2015

December 11th

Dear Copper,

Tonight we narrowed our home search to just the ones we want to see Sunday... This is finally happening! Ahhhhhh!

Love,
Fox

Thursday, December 10, 2015

December 10th

Dear Copper,

Someday I'm going to be old. And you're going to be old, too. So let's just be happy and grow old together, okay?

Love,
Fox

Tuesday, December 8, 2015

December 8th

Dear Copper,

Happy year and a half of being an official couple! And less than 5 months now until our wedding!

Love,
Fox

Monday, December 7, 2015

December 7th

Dear Copper,

As of today, we are officially pre-approved to buy a home. Can't wait to live with you! Here starts the hunt of what you coined our "love shack..."

Love,
Fox

December 6th

Dear Copper,

We both woke up from our nap today feeling snuggly and warm holding each other... It really was a sweet moment.

Love,
Fox

Saturday, December 5, 2015

December 5th

Dear Copper,

Writing your nightly note early since I'm headed to dinner with you soon... Just thought I would let you know that "I like your beard."

Yes I just included Ke$ha lyrics in a love note to you. It may or may not have anything to do with me listening to 2000s/R&B music right now. And you probably wouldn't have thought of that song without me saying anything... ;)

Love,
Fox

Friday, December 4, 2015

December 4th

Dear Copper,

You went with me to my office Christmas party tonight and on the way home told me the people that you enjoyed talking with versus the people you didn't really clique with... Not knowing names that I have told you or by basing it on the time spent with each group, you picked out the same co-workers that I enjoy talking with... More proof that we are a good match. Even if we had met randomly at a house party, we probably still would have ended up talking and enjoying each other's company.

Love,
Fox

Thursday, December 3, 2015

December 3rd

Dear Copper,

You saw The Grinch (the non-animated version) for the first time tonight... And so it begins, getting in the Christmas spirit. 

Love you!

Love,
Fox

Wednesday, December 2, 2015

December 2nd

Dear Copper,

Can't wait to start watching Christmas movies all cuddled on the couch with you :)

Love,
Fox

Tuesday, December 1, 2015

December 1st

Dear Copper,

Every time I look at you I think, "Wow, he's mine? How did I get so lucky?!"

Love,
Fox

Monday, November 30, 2015

November 30th

Dear Copper,

You've been applying for counseling jobs to supplement your full-time job (so your work life will be more fulfilling). It's one of the many reasons I love you.

Love,
Fox

Sunday, November 29, 2015

Saturday, November 28, 2015

November 28th

Dear Copper,

You were a good sport today and helped me test cakes at the bakery for our wedding cake. Thankfully we were able to complete the full order and check it off our list. It was actually somewhat fun, and I was happy to have had you there with me. Throughout our marriage, we will have to make hundreds of decisions, so picking our cake flavors and design is just the beginning...

Love,
Fox

Friday, November 27, 2015

November 27th

Dear Copper,

Morning love letter today because we have Friendsgiving tonight... Love you sweetheart!

Love,
Fox

Thursday, November 26, 2015

November 26th

Dear Copper,

It meant a lot that you wanted to spend the first part of Thanksgiving with me even though your family was originally supposed to be eating around the same time. Glad we were able to coordinate things so we could celebrate with both sides and be together today for Thanksgiving :)

Love,
Fox

Wednesday, November 25, 2015

November 25th

Dear Copper,

We are both in our mid-to-late 20s and watched a Disney movie tonight... This is why I love you. Because you will do this stuff with me.

Love,
Fox

Tuesday, November 24, 2015

November 24th

Dear Copper,

Today for my psychology class, I read that there are three components that make up different types of love:
1. Intimacy 
2. Passion
3. Decision/commitment

Here's to us having all three elements all throughout our marriage and that we have the best type of love there is out there...

Love,
Fox

Monday, November 23, 2015

November 23rd

Dear Copper,

So when I take your last name, I will be the only person in the United States (possibly the world) with my name... I'm super excited to be your Mrs!

Love,
Fox

Sunday, November 22, 2015

November 22nd

Dear Copper,

Tonight we officially ordered our save-the-dates... Which means we're one step closer to getting married! Can't wait to be your wife :)

Love,
Fox

Saturday, November 21, 2015

November 21st

Dear Copper,

I'm so proud of you! Today you put up a profile on Psychology Today to offer individual counseling sessions. Glad you are so motivated and passionate about something to pursue it and help make a difference in the world.

Love,
Fox

Friday, November 20, 2015

November 20th

Dear Copper,

You were such a stud in high school and college. I would have totally had a crush on you. 

Just for the record, you're still hot and that crush I have on you isn't going away anytime soon.

Love,
Fox

Thursday, November 19, 2015

November 19th

Dear Copper,

You are just so stinking cute. Can't believe I get to marry you and that I get to stare at you and into your eyes  whenever I want. Oh, those dreamy eyes of yours...

Love,
Fox

Wednesday, November 18, 2015

November 18th

Dear Copper,

Tonight you handed me a wallet photo of one of your favorite pictures from our engagement photo shoot. 50 years from now, when people ask us if we have a picture in our wallet of our sweetheart (which will most definitely happen), we can both pull out the same photo and smile.

Love,
Fox

Tuesday, November 17, 2015

November 17th

Dear Copper,

Sometimes I write these letters and have no idea what to say other than "I love you," so here's tonight's note...

I love you.

Love,
Fox

Monday, November 16, 2015

November 16th

Dear Copper,

Today while we were in Lawrence, you made sure to find the nearest "car place" to get me some new windshield wipers before my drive back to St. Louis in the rain... thanks for making sure I was safe and for taking care of me :)

Love,
Fox

Sunday, November 15, 2015

November 15th

Dear Copper,

Tonight we walked around KU exploring the campus and some of my "old stomping grounds" as you put it. I was lucky to share my special "semester spot" with you along with the music building and other spots on campus that held value to me. We also kissed in the campanile as the bells were going off, so I guess it's official now, KU folklore says we are getting married!

Love,
Fox

November 14th

Dear Copper,

You are everything I need.

Love,
Fox

Friday, November 13, 2015

Thursday, November 12, 2015

November 12th

Dear Copper,

I felt stressed tonight, and you helped talk me through things and suggested we say a prayer together... It made me feel a little better :)

Love,
Fox

Tuesday, November 10, 2015

November 10th

Dear Copper,

Life is too short for me to not tell you every day that I love you. 

Love,
Fox

Monday, November 9, 2015

November 9th

Dear Copper,

I'm glad my friends and family like you... It's easy to see what a great guy you are :)

Love,
Fox

Sunday, November 8, 2015

November 8th

Dear Copper,

We were all snuggled up next to each other for most of today... It was nice :)

Love,
Fox

Saturday, November 7, 2015

November 7th

Dear Copper,

Figured if write this before we go out for the night... Just a short note to say that I love how you get me out of my comfort zone.

Love,
Fox

Friday, November 6, 2015

Thursday, November 5, 2015

November 5th

Dear Copper,

I was listening to songs tonight that remind me of you... They all made me smile. "You make loving you easy, you make loving you, all I wanna do..."

Love,
Fox

Wednesday, November 4, 2015

November 4th

Dear Copper,

You showed me where our honeymoon will be tonight... Looking forward to a fun trip with you and a wonderful start to our marriage in a few months!

Love,
Fox

Tuesday, November 3, 2015

November 3rd

Dear Copper,

You make me a more adventurous person who takes more risks. As scary as that seems to me, I know it's a good thing.

Love,
Fox

Monday, November 2, 2015

November 2nd

Dear Copper,

You brought over a card for my mom today for her upcoming surgery later this week... Major brownie points for being so thoughtful.

Love,
Fox

Sunday, November 1, 2015

November 1st

Dear Copper,

I like that we make sure to talk to each other every day, even when we can't see each other.

Love,
Fox

October 31st

Dear Copper,

Should I ever not be there to wish you goodnight or give you a goodnight kiss... Sweet dreams sweetheart.

Love,
Fox 

Friday, October 30, 2015

October 30th

Dear Copper,

I admire that you care for your family so much... Glad I chose you to be a part of mine :)

Love,
Fox

Thursday, October 29, 2015

October 29th

Dear Copper,

This morning I was sick and went to get my throat swabbed before work to make sure I didn't have strep. I then went over to your house after (it was negative) to get ready for work. Despite your fatigue after having worked 12 hours yourself, you still made sure to make me a cup of hot tea with honey to help me feel better.

Sometimes I just forget how truly lucky I am to have a wonderful (future) husband like you in my life.

Love,
Fox

Wednesday, October 28, 2015

October 28th

Dear Copper,

You have been encouraging me all day to get out of my "stinky thinking." This is why I need you in my life...

Love,
Fox

Tuesday, October 27, 2015

Monday, October 26, 2015

October 26th

Dear Copper,

Happy 29th birthday! May this upcoming year be your best one yet. Looking forward to all the memories we will make in the years to come :)

Love,
Fox

Sunday, October 25, 2015

October 25th

Dear Copper,

Here was the note I wrote in your birthday card tonight (yes, I realize your birthday is tomorrow on October 26th, but I figured I'd include this note)... Can't wait to see you when you come home from work and love you lots!


Love,
Fox

Saturday, October 24, 2015

October 24th

Dear Copper,

We had a rough night last night... I'll just remind future us (for when we read back through these letters) of the same words of wisdom I wrote in your cousin Ruth's wedding book tonight:

"Count your blessings more than your problems."

Love,
Fox

Friday, October 23, 2015

October 23rd

Dear Copper,

I'm sitting on your couch right now as you go get your health screening done at work, so I thought I'd write your "nightly" love letter a little earlier today. Just thought I would remind you of how special you are to me :)

Love,
Fox

Thursday, October 22, 2015

October 22nd

Dear Copper,

We make such a good duo and help to balance each other out.

Love,
Fox

Wednesday, October 21, 2015

October 21st

Dear Copper,

We talked on the phone tonight while I was on my run... Thanks for helping me get up the huge hill (read: thanks for always being there for me when I need it)!

Love,
Fox

Tuesday, October 20, 2015

October 20th

Dear Copper,

I can't wait until I live with you and get to hopefully see you at least once everyday.

Love,
Fox

Monday, October 19, 2015

October 19th

Dear Copper,

This morning I was complaining that my neck hurt (my muscles have been stuck since yesterday), so you looked up how to make me a homemade heat pack. You then made pancakes for breakfast and made me a special Mickey shaped one.

I just love you so much and am so stinking lucky!

Love,
Fox

Sunday, October 18, 2015

October 18th

Dear Copper,

We had a rough morning/late night to end our Whiskey Weekend. Let's just say the shot your fraternity brother brought you was a bit strong... Oh my. 

Thankfully we were able to talk things through and nap before our drive home (where we went through 80 of the "100 questions to ask before getting married")... Answering all those get to know you questions really helped remind me of why I am marrying you and how much you love me. 

Love you!

Love,
Fox

Saturday, October 17, 2015

October 17th

Dear Copper,

May as well write this note now this morning while I'm awake (I'm in the lobby of our hotel in Louisville)... Just thought I'd remind you how much I love you. Looking forward to a fun day at the bourbon distilleries!

Love,
Fox

Friday, October 16, 2015

October 16th

Dear Copper,

Tonight I met the rest of your college friends... I think I've met most everyone now. Lucky to be included in such a good group of people now :)

Love,
Fox

Thursday, October 15, 2015

October 15th

Dear Copper,

I appreciate you keeping my secrets and things that I share with you I don't want repeated. You're my best friend.

Love,
Fox

Wednesday, October 14, 2015

October 14th

Dear Copper,

I'm glad that with you I will never be "forever alone." With you, I will always have a lifelong friend to eat dinner with, go to a movie with, talk about my day with, or hug. I'm pretty lucky that I get a permanent friend for whenever I need a buddy.

"You got a friend in me... Yeah, you got a friend in me..."

Love,
Fox 

Tuesday, October 13, 2015

October 13th

Dear Copper,

I just love you so very much and I thought you could use a reminder :)

Love,
Fox

Monday, October 12, 2015

October 12th

Dear Copper,

Our wedding photographer today kept saying how romantic you were during our photo shoot... I'm pretty lucky to have snagged such a great guy who loves me so much. Can't wait to look back at all the engagement pictures we took today and remember the love we felt looking into each other's eyes...

Thanks also for taking care of my oil change today while I studied for my test. It lets me know how much you care for me and reminds me again what a great guy I have for my (future) husband.

Love,
Fox

Sunday, October 11, 2015

October 11th

Dear Copper,

One of the best parts about loving you is the ability to grow old together.

Also, I briefly saw (and tried on) my official rings today (since the original was too big and couldn't be correctly re-sized down to what I needed)... I know it's going to be hard eventually saying goodbye to the original ring from that night, but there was something magical about holding the one in the store today, knowing it's the one I will have the rest of my life...

Love,
Fox 

Saturday, October 10, 2015

October 10th

Dear Copper,

I'm glad I didn't say anything after we went out tonight (I was a bit peeved) and that we just came back and cuddled instead.

Love,
Fox

Friday, October 9, 2015

October 9th

Dear Copper,

I love that with you I never had to try and impress you by being someone other than myself... I never had to pretend to be more outgoing, or to like meat, or to be more athletic... I was able to just simply be me.

Love,
Fox

Thursday, October 8, 2015

October 8th

Dear Copper,

This morning I woke up to a strange text message conversation about outer space, dimensions, and what happens to our souls after we die... All I could think of was a Dr. Seuss quote: 


You then proceeded to tell me that you wanted my soul to be with yours forever. Which sounds kind of morbid and kind of strange, but I understood what you meant. You also said you have a strange feeling you are going to outlive me and said you didn't think you could remarry. I want you to always be happy. Should I go first, I don't want you to be alone the rest of your life. Promise me you will find a companion. And my soul will be waiting for you on the other side. Until then, embrace the idea that we are just two weird individuals on Earth who love each other very much.

Love,
Fox

Wednesday, October 7, 2015

October 7th

Dear Copper,

So initially I thought we would be getting married 2 years from now on 10/7/17... Instead we're getting married 7 months from today on 5/7/16! 

As you text earlier, "I've had a freak out or two, but they always end with me concluding that this will be the best decision I've ever made, ever."

Yup, getting closer to our best decision ever.

Love,
Fox

Tuesday, October 6, 2015

October 6th

Dear Copper,

I really appreciated you coming over, even just to study tonight. I was really looking forward to seeing you all day!

Love,
Fox

Monday, October 5, 2015

October 5th

Dear Copper,

Today you complemented me on my hair and makeup, since you knew I was doing a trial run for our engagement photos next week. Thanks for always making me feel so beautiful.

Love,
Fox

Sunday, October 4, 2015

October 4th

Dear Copper,

All love songs I hear and all romantic movies I watch remind me of you... I must love you.

Love,
Fox

Saturday, October 3, 2015

October 3rd

Dear Copper,

Just another simple reminder that I love you very much.

Love,
Fox

Friday, October 2, 2015

October 2nd

Dear Copper,

Per our conversation in the car tonight... If something happens to me, you are to go out and find yourself a companion. That being said, I hope I never have to live a day of my life without you. I love you too much and I don't know what I would do without you!

Love,
Fox

Thursday, October 1, 2015

October 1st

Dear Copper,

Tonight at work you were reading more of your Jung book... I love that you are always interested in learning.

Love,
Fox

Wednesday, September 30, 2015

September 30th

Dear Copper,

I know you occasionally have your doubts about whether or not we will last. Yes, things will get harder over time and no, it won't always be wine and roses. A marriage isn't always meant to be easy, and that's what makes it so special. In agreeing to marry you, I am choosing you to be my forever and always... and that's quite a long time. We are making a commitment to not only each other, but to ourselves as well, that we will stick things out thick and thin. I promise to not always like you, but I do promise to always love you. That will never change.

Love,
Fox 

Tuesday, September 29, 2015

Monday, September 28, 2015

September 28th

Dear Copper,

I showed you a slideshow of pictures of us put to music tonight and it made you feel really sentimental and happy... It makes me feel so special to know how much you love me.

Love,
Fox

Sunday, September 27, 2015

September 27th

Dear Copper,

I was watched the Little Mermaid tonight and thought one thing...

If you and I had been in that grotto together on one of our first dates, you totally would have just kissed me right then and there. That's because we have what Disney calls "true love." When you know, you know.

Love,
Fox

Saturday, September 26, 2015

September 26th

Dear Copper,

You're packing for Columbia right now and are super excited to pack your special socks... This is why I love you.

Love,
Fox

September 25th

Dear Copper,

Bedtime... Love you!

Love,
Fox

Thursday, September 24, 2015

September 24th

Dear Copper,

I love you. A lot. Just thought you should know.

Also, I've officially known you for over 500 days (501 as of today)! Here's to many more...

Love,
Fox

Wednesday, September 23, 2015

September 23rd

Dear Copper,

If in your old age you fall and break both your wrists, I will be the one to wipe your behind.

I love you that much.

Love,
Fox

Tuesday, September 22, 2015

September 22nd

Dear Copper,

Even just seeing you for an hour today made a world of difference... I miss you too much otherwise!

Love,
Fox

Monday, September 21, 2015

September 21st

Dear Copper,

We went to the Botanical Gardens today, and we once again tossed pennies into the Ottoman Garden fountain (like we did last May 26th)... Looks like my initial wish came true already, so here's hoping the next one does, too! We'll just have to wait and see... ;)

Love,
Fox

Sunday, September 20, 2015

Saturday, September 19, 2015

September 19th

Dear Copper,

I promise to always love you, even in times when I don't like you.

Love,
Fox

Friday, September 18, 2015

September 18th

Dear Copper,

I surprised you today by just showing up at your door after work... It's only going to be a few more months of me being able to make you happy with surprise visits like that, so I may as well take full advantage while I can! Love you!

Love,
Fox

Thursday, September 17, 2015

September 17th

Dear Copper,

I just want to give you a big smooch right now; I love you so much!

Love,
Fox 

Wednesday, September 16, 2015

September 16th

Dear Copper,

I gave you a hug tonight before we said goodbye and I just didn't want to let go... This is how I'm reminded how much I love you.

Love,
Fox

Tuesday, September 15, 2015

September 15th

Dear Copper,

I just love you so so much. I can't even begin to put into words how much I need you in my life.

Love,
Fox

Monday, September 14, 2015

September 14th

Dear Copper,

Yup, definitely made the right choice in picking a future husband. 

Even though I was studying most of the day, it was still nice having you by my side (you slept in preparation of your overnight shift)... It just gave me a nice sense of peace. Can't wait to live with you soon!

Love,
Fox

Sunday, September 13, 2015

Saturday, September 12, 2015

September 12th

Dear Copper,

As of today, you have officially met my entire extended family. I'd also like to say that I know you will be a great father someday, not on your phone while our kids are taking their first steps or saying their first words (well, unless you are taking a video)... You're gonna be an awesome dad.

Love,
Fox

September 11th

Dear Copper,

You were just the right one for me.

Love,
Fox

Thursday, September 10, 2015

September 10th

Dear Copper,

I opened a snap from you today and my first thought was "I have a pretty damn good-looking fiancé!"

Love,
Fox

Wednesday, September 9, 2015

September 9th

Dear Copper,

I'm so happy you came over to watch Big Brother and get some cuddle time in tonight, that was just what I needed!

Love,
Fox

Tuesday, September 8, 2015

September 8th

Dear Copper,

Happy 1 year and three months! ;)

Also, thanks for such an awesome vacation to Disneyland with me... We had some tough times early in the week combined with tons of fun times throughout the trip, and I know that is how our marriage will be in the future. Thanks for agreeing to go through life with me, good times as bad... So lucky I get to be your wife!

Love,
Fox

Monday, September 7, 2015

September 7th

Dear Copper,

Today is our last day in Disneyland, and I just wanted to say how lucky I am to have been able to share this experience with you, my best friend.

Love,
Fox

Sunday, September 6, 2015

September 6th

Dear Copper, 

Thanks for getting up early, walking me to the bus stop, and then running with me today during the Disneyland Half... I know it wouldn't have been nearly as fun without you there. 

Love,
Fox

Saturday, September 5, 2015

September 5th

Dear Copper,

We had a rough start to our trip, but this shows that we will be able to make it through anything, as long as we're together.

Love,
Fox

Friday, September 4, 2015

September 4th

Dear Copper,

We're in Disneyland!

Love,
Fox

September 3rd

Dear Copper,
 
We didn't have your luggage, or transportation, or the room we requested, but I have you, so it's all going to be alright. Literally the only thing that kept me from losing it tonight was holding on to your arm in the shuttle to our "Disney" hotel.

Love,
Fox

Wednesday, September 2, 2015

September 2nd

Dear Copper,

I love you because you let me have the window seat (and put up with me not ever wanting to check a bag, haha)!

Love,
Fox

Tuesday, September 1, 2015

September 1st

Dear Copper,

I get to be your BFFAEAEAE (best friend forever and ever and ever and ever)! How lucky am I?!

Love,
Fox

Monday, August 31, 2015

August 31st

Dear Copper,

You are the peace to my turmoil. All day I have been stressed about getting stuff done before our trip, and you just calmly told me to take 30 minutes to chill. It was the best part of my day.

Love,
Fox

August 30th

Dear Copper,

Thanks for the little O's tonight. Love you!

Love,
Fox

Saturday, August 29, 2015

August 29th

Dear Copper,

Thanks for the drunken voicemail tonight telling me I'm beautiful...

Edit from 8/30/15: Woke up to see 23 missed calls (3 of which were Face Time), 4 voicemails, 10 texts, and one Snapchat on my phone this morning... You must really love me! ;)

Love,
Fox

Friday, August 28, 2015

August 28th

Dear Copper,

I just knew you were the one. Best decision I ever will make is marrying you.

Love,
Fox

Thursday, August 27, 2015

August 27th

Dear Copper,

Right now, the best part of my day is when I get to talk to you... Only two more sleeps until I get to see to again (three nights down, two to go)!

Love,
Fox

Wednesday, August 26, 2015

August 26th

Dear Copper,

You had such an interest in my Social Psyc class that you bought yourself the book... This is one of the reasons I love you. You're not even taking the class, but want to read about the topic just for the sake of learning/curiosity. 

Love,
Fox

Tuesday, August 25, 2015

August 25th

Dear Copper,

Tonight starts your first of 4 nights working a later shift... Which means we won't get to talk on the phone/see each other until Saturday. It's strange not being able to see you or talk to you when I want... I kinda miss you already. That being said, snaps it is!

Love,
Fox

Monday, August 24, 2015

August 24th

Dear Copper,

We walked around Laumeier today and were joking about how abstract the structures and their descriptions were. We then passed by the Arctic Ice machine and jokingly interpreted it as a modern art piece.... "It illustrates the stark contour of hot weather meeting cold beverages and the block letters of the font illustrate symbols remnant of igloo-shaped blocks..."

This is how I know you're the right one for me.

Then, as if that weren't enough, you went out of your way to drop my phone charger back off at my house (I forgot it this afternoon when I left your house)... And man oh man did I need that hug too. 

I just love you so much and couldn't be happier that you love me so much in return!

Love,
Fox

Sunday, August 23, 2015

August 23rd

Dear Copper,

I know I have said this before, but you definitely have the ability to calm me down when I get stressed. It's just one of the many reasons I love you so much...

Love,
Fox

Saturday, August 22, 2015

August 22nd

Dear Copper,

I can't believe how lucky I am to have snagged you as my husband! You're everything I needed.

Love, 
Fox

Friday, August 21, 2015

August 21st

Dear Copper,

I love thinking "wow, my future husband is such a stud."

Love,
Fox

Thursday, August 20, 2015

August 20th

Dear Copper,

I really appreciate all the times you go out of your way to spend time with me or make me feel special, it means the world to me.

Love,
Fox

Wednesday, August 19, 2015

August 19th

Dear Copper,

We won't see each other for the next four days (you go on a float trip) and tonight you sent me a text simply saying "butttttt." While I could easily sit here, roll my eyes, and dote on immaturity, I know this is your way of saying you already miss me. I couldn't think of a better response to reply with than "buttttttt to you too."

Miss you already...

Love,
Fox

Tuesday, August 18, 2015

August 18th

Dear Copper,

I get off work and the very first thing I want to do is talk with you...

Love,
Fox

Monday, August 17, 2015

August 17th

Dear Copper,

Tonight I said yes to my wedding dress! Can't wait for you to see me wear it :)

Love,
Fox

Sunday, August 16, 2015

August 16th

Dear Copper,

I just want you to realize how truly special you are to me. I can't even begin to picture you not in my life and know that everything is so much sweeter with you there by my side.

Love,
Fox

Saturday, August 15, 2015

August 15th

Dear Copper,

You're good for me. Like seriously though, you're my best friend.

Love,
Fox

Friday, August 14, 2015

August 14th

Dear Copper,

I need you in my life. You give me good balance and are exactly what I need (even if it's not always what I want).

Love,
Fox

Thursday, August 13, 2015

August 13th

Dear Copper,

Never tell me you are bored. I will always find you something to do.

Love,
Fox

Wednesday, August 12, 2015

Tuesday, August 11, 2015

August 11th

Dear Copper,

I felt stressed today at work and came home all frustrated... Thanks for listening to me vent, it means a lot.

Love,
Fox 

Monday, August 10, 2015

August 10th

Dear Copper,

Tonight we picked our wedding photographer... I know all the pictures of the two of us will look great, because I can't help but smile when I look into your eyes...

Love,
Fox

Sunday, August 9, 2015

August 9th

Dear Copper,

We're pretty compatible, you know that? I'm happy to have you as my best friend for life.

Love,
Fox

Saturday, August 8, 2015

August 8th

Dear Copper,

You are absolutely adorable, you know that? Seriously, I couldn't have picked a future husband more cute than you.

Love,
Fox

Friday, August 7, 2015

Thursday, August 6, 2015

August 6th

Dear Copper,

Seriously how lucky am I that you are the one that I get to go through life with? Can't wait to grow old with you, baby ;)

Love,
Fox

Wednesday, August 5, 2015

August 5th

Dear Copper,

I am so glad that you are the person I have chosen to go through life with.

Love,
Fox

Tuesday, August 4, 2015

August 4th

Dear Copper,

I appreciate you helping to keep me sane when I start to get stressed.

Love,
Fox

Monday, August 3, 2015

August 3rd

Dear Copper,

I tried on my first set of wedding dresses today... can't wait to walk down the aisle to see you on our big day!

Love,
Fox

August 2nd

Dear Copper,

I was going to write this letter last night, but you were right next to me, so it's a morning note instead... Thanks for offering to give me the "good pillow," it reminds me how much you love me.

Love,
Fox

Saturday, August 1, 2015

August 1st

Dear Copper,

Writing this letter before we go out so I don't forget later... Just thought I would let you know how incredibly special you are to me and how much I love you.

Love,
Fox

Friday, July 31, 2015

July 31st

Dear Copper,

One of the reasons I love you so much/knew you were the one was because I knew you would be a good balance for me. I needed someone not like me, but someone who could get me to be more social and to help me let loose every now and then. I know that life with you will never be boring, and it's one of the reasons I know I've chosen the right guy for me.

Love,
Fox

Thursday, July 30, 2015

July 30th

Dear Copper,

There are so many other girls out there who may look at you and wish you were theirs... How incredibly lucky I am to call you mine :)

Love,
Fox

Wednesday, July 29, 2015

July 29th

Dear Copper,

I am so glad I will never have to question your loyalty to me; it's one of the reasons I love you. You are going to be an excellent husband and father someday, and I'm lucky to call you mine.

Love,
Fox

Tuesday, July 28, 2015

July 28th

Dear Copper,

Texting you in the middle of my day is the best part of being at work.

Love,
Fox

Monday, July 27, 2015

July 27th

Dear Copper,

We officially have a DJ and photo booth for our wedding! This is starting to get real... as if it wasn't already... I'm going to be your wife in less than a year!

Love,
Fox

Sunday, July 26, 2015

July 26th

Dear Copper,

Thanks for agreeing to watch Big Brother or FRIENDS with me. I know they aren't exactly your cup of tea, but it's sweet of you to be a good sport and go along with it because you know it makes me happy. It's one of the reasons I love you so much.

Love,
Fox

July 25th

Dear Copper,

This is from last night when we were at the Lake with no service...

I love your manly skills like starting fires to BBQ and pitching tents (whichever way you interpret this). It makes you super hot... Figuratively and literally.

Love,
Fox 

Saturday, July 25, 2015

July 24th

Dear Copper,

There will be times in our marriage when we say things we shouldn't. It's in knowing when to apologize and how to have open communication that we will become stronger.

Love,
Fox

Thursday, July 23, 2015

July 23rd

Dear Copper,

Tonight you asked me again via text why I love you... For the sake of you not having to go back through your messages to find my answer, here was my reply: 

"For starters, I love the way that you love me. I love that I don't have to question your loyalty/integrity and respect toward me. You treat me the way I deserve to be treated. I love that you are amiable/well liked, it's evident with all of the good friends that you still keep in contact with. I admire your ability to help others and process through conflict in a positive way. I think you are clever and I enjoy the fact that you appreciate my sense of humor as well. I can have deep conversations with you and I find you interesting. Your eyes combined with that smile of yours makes me go weak at the knees and cuddles are the best part of my day. I can't imagine my life without you, and I hope I never have to again."

Love,
Fox 

Wednesday, July 22, 2015

July 22nd

Dear Copper,

We have our wedding venue and an official date set as of tonight! May 7th, 2016! Ahhhhhhhh!!!

Love,
Fox

Tuesday, July 21, 2015

July 21st

Dear Copper,

When something good happens, you're the first person I want to tell. When something is bothering me, you're the first person I want to tell. This is how I know you're my person.

Love,
Fox

Monday, July 20, 2015

July 20th

Dear Copper,

I still get a rush of dopamine when I look down at my phone and see your name with the cute kissing emoji next to it.

Love,
Fox

Sunday, July 19, 2015

July 19th

Dear Copper,

I could be locked in the Big Brother house, but only if you were there with me. Otherwise I definitely wouldn't make it.

Love,
Fox

July 18th

Dear Copper,

It may not always be wine and roses, but I'm in this for the long haul baby.

Love,
Fox

Friday, July 17, 2015

July 17th

Dear Copper,

Tonight we sat on the back porch and talked about religion/faith/the abstract. It was a good conversation, and it's one of the reasons I know I will be able to talk deeply and intellectually with you in the future (read: Talk nerdy to me. It's hot). 

Love,
Fox

Thursday, July 16, 2015

July 16th

Dear Copper,

I just can't wait to marry you and to finally be your wife...

Love,
Fox

Wednesday, July 15, 2015

July 15th

Dear Copper,

Your cool confidence is one of the many reasons I love you so much.

Love,
Fox

Tuesday, July 14, 2015

July 14th

Dear Copper,

I thank you for encouraging me to always pursue things important to me and for reminding me to stop and relax every now and then. It's one of the reasons I need you in my life.

Love,
Fox 

Monday, July 13, 2015

July 13th

Dear Copper,

It's cool to think that we only lived 10 minutes apart (and went to the same church) as kids, but never really met or knew each other. I wonder how many times I passed you working at the desk at Concordia on my way to handbell practice...

Love,
Fox

Saturday, July 11, 2015

July 11th

Dear Copper,

After the concert tonight, I have one question... Marry me?

Love,
Fox

Friday, July 10, 2015

July 10th

Dear Copper,

I just love you. A lot. Like a million red Mike and Ike candies a lot.

Love,
Fox

Thursday, July 9, 2015

July 9th

Dear Copper,

Today while on a run, I was listening to the song "Married Life" from Up. While I was listening, I heard all of the changing melodies to match the crazy highs and lows that can be experienced in a marriage. I heard happy melodies mixed in with a few heartbreaking ones, and listened as the music toward the end of the song indicated age and the duo growing old together. During the song I imagined the two of us going through our life together, and it made me smile. Here, have a listen...


Love,
Fox

Wednesday, July 8, 2015

July 8th

Dear Copper,

The best part of my day was snuggling up on the couch to watch The Carbonaro Effect together... It's kinda like magic that you appeared into my life. I'm pretty lucky.

Love,
Fox 

Tuesday, July 7, 2015

July 7th

Dear Copper,

I know you're frustrated that we aren't living together yet... I am too. But I want to be as prepared as I can be before we start our future together as homeowners. I promise you it will come sooner than you think!

Love,
Fox

Monday, July 6, 2015

July 6th

Dear Copper,

You checked your emails tonight and looked up lake houses while I sorted through some of my grad school information. I know it will still be a while from a financial (and somewhat emotional standpoint), but I can't wait to live with you. Then we can do all that same stuff, but then we can just fall asleep together in the same place.

Love, 
Fox

Sunday, July 5, 2015

July 5th

Dear Copper,

You mean the world to me and I can't even begin to imagine my life without you. Tonight I was watching the episode of FRIENDS where Ross and Rachel break up, and it got me thinking about everything I would miss without you in my life. I am so blessed and happy to have found you that I am never letting go. I love you too much!

Love,
Fox

July 4th

Dear Copper,

Two words: fireworks and a dryer.

Love,
Fox 

Saturday, July 4, 2015

July 3rd

Dear Copper,

Despite feeling a bit cold yourself, you let me borrow your hoodie tonight as we sat on the dock/patio. It's those gestures that may not seem like a lot, but remind me how lucky I am to have such a good guy like you.

Love,
Fox

Friday, July 3, 2015

July 2nd

Dear Copper,

We're at the Lake this weekend for 4th of July and tonight we played Loaded Questions. I love how I was able to distinguish your responses most of the time... it shows how much I know you :)

Love,
Fox

Wednesday, July 1, 2015

July 1st

Dear Copper,

Your friends are a big part of who you are... I'm glad yours accept me and that I like them, too.

Love,
Fox

Tuesday, June 30, 2015

June 30th

Dear Copper,

Tonight we played a "game" where we guessed where the scenic images on your television (a la screensaver) were originally taken. Colorado, Ireland, Hawaii...? We stared at that screen for a good 5-7 minutes.

It's reasons like this that I know we are compatible.

Love,
Fox

Monday, June 29, 2015

June 29th

Dear Copper,

All I want to do right now is have you hold me in your arms before we go to bed.

Love,
Fox

Sunday, June 28, 2015

June 28th

Dear Copper,

I know that whatever challenges come our way, we will get through them, together.

Love,
Fox

June 27th

Dear Copper,

This morning we sent text messages of affirmation to each other about why we love each other. It was one of the best part of my day.

But I also appreciated this text from you tonight after our game of Settlers of Catan... "If I had a port for two wheats for whatever... I'd trade for cuddles" Hehe

Love,
Fox

Friday, June 26, 2015

June 26th

Dear Copper,

I don't know about you, but I feel a ton better after talking on the phone with you again this afternoon. It's nice being able to feel like we can share life together again. The whole talking intermittently thing was killing me.

Love, 
Fox

Thursday, June 25, 2015

June 25th

Dear Copper,

Things we have learned from our talk tonight:

1. If I say anything commitment-related, it must be in writing for you to hold me to my word/absolute truth.
2. You will never call me names, no matter how angry you are.
3. I will not always come home and shut our bedroom door.
4. We will not go to bed angry.
5. There is no "try" in our relationship. Once we say those vows we are stuck together, for better or worse.
6. I will always be afraid of driving on the highway in thunderstorms. But I do like piña coladas and dancing in the rain... Just kidding, we did not realize that from our talk tonight. But I do like those.

Love,
Fox

Wednesday, June 24, 2015

June 24th

Dear Copper,

I couldn't sleep at all last night from the stress of the phone conversation we had right before bed. All day, I felt frustrated with you and tried to assess your anger and whether or not I could approach you for conversation. We only talked for about 10 minutes earlier, but that short amount of time helped give me a little bit of peace of mind to sleep slightly better tonight (you know, 6-7 hours instead of 5). 

Let's never go to bed angry, okay?

Love,
Fox

Tuesday, June 23, 2015

June 23rd

Dear Copper,

At this moment, you are currently interviewing for a new job... Wishing you good luck, saying a prayer, and sending good vibes and karma your way right now!

Love,
Fox

Monday, June 22, 2015

June 22nd

Dear Copper,

I love how you get me to relax. I have a tendency to go 100 mph trying to get things done, but you remind me to take it slow and enjoy some time taking it easy too.

Love,
Fox

Sunday, June 21, 2015

June 21st

Dear Copper,

We may not agree on all music tastes, but we do agree on The Fray. Let's be honest, I wouldn't be able to marry you if you didn't like their music.

Just kidding, I would still be able to... But you liking them is a major plus.

Anyways, one of my favorite moments from today was driving down the highway from Ironton this morning listening to Spotify with my shoes off and toes on your dash. I remember looking over at you in your navy blue polo to match your (semi) blue-ish eyes and thinking how easy it was to fall in love with you. No games, no complications, just a trust of knowing that you will love me with all of your heart. I just love you so much, baby!

Love,
Fox

June 20th

Dear Copper,

You are currently asleep (and snoring) on my lap after your friend's wedding tonight. Just feeling you next to me puts me at ease and makes everything feel more peaceful... It's one of the many reasons I love you.

Love,
Fox

P.S. I will always love you, dance moves and all (the original note before you fell asleep)...

Friday, June 19, 2015

June 19th

Dear Copper,

You heard me play piano for the first time tonight. It was in that small chapel in the dark at Arcadia Academy. I know it seemed simple, but that moment meant a lot to me.

Love,
Fox

Thursday, June 18, 2015

June 18th

Dear Copper,

Today at work I was walking down the hall when I saw an older couple holding hands. In that moment I envisioned the two of us years from now walking down a hall like that one. I just really love you, you know that?

Love,
Fox

Wednesday, June 17, 2015

June 17th

Dear Copper,

I admire the fact that you want to work to improve yourself by seeing a therapist and make us stronger as a couple before we get married. It shows how committed you are to being a great husband and future father.

Love,
Fox

Tuesday, June 16, 2015

June 16th

Dear Copper,

It's inevitable that we are going to disagree on things. So just remember... "Happy wife, happy life." Just kidding. May we have a marriage filled with compromise. But also knowing that ( > ) 50% of the time, I am right ;)

Love,
Fox

Monday, June 15, 2015

June 15th

Dear Copper,

You are just the absolute best. Even your smile puts me at ease during a busy day. I must be dreaming that you are mine...

Love,
Fox

Sunday, June 14, 2015

June 14th

Dear Copper,

We took my ring back to Zales to get the right size today... They told us we should have it back in 2 weeks :) We also had art night tonight using the canvases you bought me for my birthday. Sitting down and painting with you while listening to the Interstellar soundtrack reminded me of how much I love you and reiterated the fact I know you are the one I want to spend the rest of my life with. You then encouraged that we try some mindfulness while cuddling together... Your touch, your breathing/heart beat, your fresh linen smell, the feel of your warmth physically and emotionally... I can't even begin to explain how wonderful of a moment it was with you (of course, many are). Can't wait for all those moments we'll share in the future!


Love, 
Fox

June 13th

Dear Copper,

The whole world knows we're engaged now (a.k.a. we made it FB official today)! It's so exciting seeing all the love and support from our family and friends come together all in one place. It was also your first time meeting some of my co-workers tonight at a trivia night, and after we went back for some cuddling at your house. There is no better feeling than falling asleep in your arms... Thanks for letting me drool on you, it's one of the reasons I love you so much ;)

Love,
Fox

Friday, June 12, 2015

June 12th

Dear Copper,

I want you to always remember how much I love you and what you mean to me. You are my very best friend, that person I share all my secrets with, the person who comforts me when I am upset, shares my joys when I am excited, who encourages me to keep learning and to go out of my comfort zone, the one who makes me feel special. I can't even begin to thank you enough for the impact you have had (or will have) on my life.

Love,
Fox

Thursday, June 11, 2015

June 11th

Dear Copper,

We decided on Concordia for our ceremony tonight... After all, it is God and that establishment that brought us together in the first place...

Love,
Fox

Wednesday, June 10, 2015

June 10th

Dear Copper,

Tonight I went to have my ring resized at the jewelers... This is starting to feel real... WE ARE GETTING MARRIED! Ahhhhh, I'm so excited!

Love,
Fox

Tuesday, June 9, 2015

June 9th

Dear Copper,

Today I tried to figure out just the right picture and caption to post our good news online. The wedding planning has officially begun I suppose...

Of course, through all the soon-to-be hoopla, I just wanted to remind you how excited I am to marry you and one day be your wife. Because if at the end of the day you end up with the person you wanted to marry, all that wedding planning you did was successful.

Love,
Fox

June 8th

Dear Copper (a.k.a. My Fiancé),

We're ENGAGED!!! I'll have to type the story for recap memories later :) Love you!

On our one year anniversary, we went to the same park we went to after our first (official) date (after having dinner at the same restaurant, where we ate with a candle talking about why we loved each other). You started leading me down the path toward the pavilion where we had our first kiss, but teenagers were skateboarding there, so you brought me over by a picnic table near the pond instead. You sat down on the bench part, while I opted to sit on the table part. You looked up at me and said, "well, you know I love you, right?" before pulling out the cross necklace your parents gave you from Ireland, which had the ring attached. You then got down on one knee and asked me to marry you. My response was "absolutely" with a big smile. 

We then went to have a nice man with a dog take our pictures by one of the picnic benches closer to the lake (I wanted to try and recreate my Nana and Papa's engagement night picture), but we chose the most technology inept man ever... At least we got a good picture of me laughing. And our selfies actually turned out pretty well... Go figure.

We started walking back to the car when we noticed kids playing capture the flag with glow stick bracelets. We each picked one up and head back toward the car, and I put mine on my wrist. We both called our families, and my mother insisted we stop by the house (she had kept my Nana and aunt there all day playing Scrabble). We did FaceTime/calls on multiple phones before opening a few gifts (a cross and picture frame). Then we head back to Hollywood (room 470, good luck for you I suppose!) for the rest of the night.

When we got back, you popped open the bottle of champagne and we sipped our bubbly from the engraved flutes that your parents gave us with "blessed man" and my future last name on them. We were able to enjoy some celebrating on our own before finally heading to bed as a newly engaged couple :)

Love,
Fox (a.k.a. Your Fiancée)

Sunday, June 7, 2015

June 7th

Dear Copper,

I just can't even begin to imagine my life with someone other than you. Yes, every now and then I have questioned whether or not we are perfect for each other, but despite all those temporary hesitations, I know without a doubt that you are the one I am to spend the rest of my life with. As you said this morning, we may not be a "perfect match," but we are a pretty damn good one. I couldn't have said it better myself.

Love,
Fox

June 6th

Dear Copper,

You're standing around the corner from me right now... Tonight we went out after your kickball game and are staying at the City Center... Just a short note to say I love you :)

Love,
Fox 

Friday, June 5, 2015

June 5th

Dear Copper,

Tonight you were all worried about my parent's approval of you... How could they not like you?! With how well you treat and love their daughter, of course they are going to be pleased! :)

Love,
Fox

Thursday, June 4, 2015

Wednesday, June 3, 2015

June 3rd

Dear Copper,

Tonight we stopped in Big Lots! to briefly look at couches/furniture for the first time. I looked up at you, smiled, and asked you to remember that moment of us standing in the aisles. I wanted you to remember for when we are wrinkly and in retirement with gray hair, that moment we first looked at couches for our first home. And even though our first couch or first home may not last forever, I promise to love you just as much in the future as I do now. That is something that will never change.

Love,
Fox

Tuesday, June 2, 2015

Monday, June 1, 2015

June 1st

Dear Copper,

I looked up houses again tonight and you found the final dime today :)

Love,
Fox

Sunday, May 31, 2015

May 31st

Dear Copper,

It's hard for me to even begin to explain how much I love you. All I can guarantee is that if I had the opportunity to choose my husband over again, I would still choose you every time.

Love,
Fox

Saturday, May 30, 2015

May 30th

Dear Copper,

I apologize any time my goal-driven nature gets into the way of our relationship. Once I start a project, I can easily get on a one-track mindset... I promise I'm not neglecting you.

Love,
Fox

Friday, May 29, 2015

May 29th

Dear Copper,

Can't wait to keep learning new things about you... :)

Love,
Fox

Thursday, May 28, 2015

Wednesday, May 27, 2015

May 27th

Dear Copper,

I appreciate you making me feel important and giving me positive affirmation when I need it the most.

Love,
Fox

Tuesday, May 26, 2015

May 26th

Dear Copper,

Can I just run my fingers through your hair...?

Love,
Fox 

Monday, May 25, 2015

May 25th

Dear Copper,

You make me relax, even when I am stressed and refuse to just chill.

Love,
Fox

Sunday, May 24, 2015

May 24th

Dear Copper,

So today I thought of a potential wedding hashtag for us... you know, in case we end up wanting one... We'll be happily man and wife ;)

Love,
Fox

May 23rd

Dear Copper,

Thanks for still hitting on me even when we're already dating, it makes me feel special.

Love,
Fox

Friday, May 22, 2015

May 22nd

Dear Copper,

I promise to love you in sickness or in health. Forever and always baby.

Love,
Fox

Thursday, May 21, 2015

May 21st

Dear Copper,

We're at the Zac Brown Band concert right now! Happy kiss-iversary!

Love,
Fox

Wednesday, May 20, 2015

May 20th

Dear Copper,

Part of a good relationship is knowing when to pick your battles. May we both know when to stand our ground and when to let the other have their way.

Love,
Fox 

Tuesday, May 19, 2015

May 19th

Dear Copper,

How did I get so lucky to be with a guy like you?

Love,
Fox

Monday, May 18, 2015

May 18th

Dear Copper,

I am so unbelievably in love with you and can't wait for us to start our life together.

Love,
Fox

Sunday, May 17, 2015

May 17th

Dear Copper,

Can't wait to grow old with you and love you through a lifetime... click the link below, it's cute (I'd like to think we would have the same reaction).

Love to Last a Lifetime

Love,
Fox

May 16th

Dear Copper,

We stayed at your friend's house last night, so this letter is actually coming about a day late, but it has to do with events that happened yesterday. One of my old college roommates and one of your buddies were all cuddled up on the couch last night on the edge of a "budding romance" (or something like that) when we went upstairs to give them some time/space to get to know one another. It was strange, watching the duo unraveling the mystery of meeting a stranger (and possible romantic interest) for the first time.

I hope you will always be a familiar stranger to me; someone I know and feel comfortable with due to time, although someone who is consistently growing and changing (along with myself) to be a better person. I hope that there is always still that level of mysterious unknown between the two of us even after time has gone by, and that we will still be sitting next to each other learning what makes the other person so unique years into our marriage.

Last night, I was reminded (yet again) of how lucky I am to have found you. The handsome guy in the backwards hat, who fixes things around the house, who holds our family dog like a baby, who does yoga and keeps me calm, who stands next to me and holds my hand at church, who loves me more than anything... loves me in return.

And that in itself is a mystery I will never understand.

Love,
Fox


Friday, May 15, 2015

May 15th

Dear Copper,

We probably go to Krieger's way too much, but I guess in a way it's kind of our place for now. The best part of my day was snuggling up to watch Amazing Race with you before bed :)

Love,
Fox

Thursday, May 14, 2015

May 14th

Dear Copper,

Thanks for loving me through my conspiracy theories and all.

Love,
Fox

Wednesday, May 13, 2015

Tuesday, May 12, 2015

May 12th

Dear Copper,

I am just so very blessed to have you in my life. To know that I am yours and you are mine makes me feel so lucky. I definitely picked a good one, someone who will open doors for strangers and who wants to make the world a better place. I could go on and on about how wonderful you are to me... But alas, it's time for bed. So here's to a lifetime of my loving you for all that you are...

Love,
Fox

Monday, May 11, 2015

May 11th

Dear Copper,

Today I posted a picture of us from the Color Run (the one where I am on your back) with the caption, "A year ago today, I went on my (last) first date with a guy who changed my life. Yes, life can be a little messy and colorful at times, but we'll always have each other's back." 

I meant every word I said. One year ago, I would have never thought a simple FroYo date could turn into so much more. And as we sat tonight at dinner talking about moving in together a few months from now and on the same perch outside FroYo as we did 365 days prior, I realized yet again how lucky I was to be with you. Sitting there, I could feel myself falling in love with you all over again, thinking, "wow, this guy is really something special." We both shared how much happier we were this year having known each other compared to the one prior, and I can only imagine the lifetime of happiness you will bring me in the future. I am so blessed you have chosen me to share your forever with and I can't imagine life without you.

Love,
Fox

P.S. "I won't sit under the apple tree with anyone else but you, 'til you come marching home..."

May 10th

Dear Copper,

No matter what comes our way, I will always love you to the moon and back. You make me feel like the luckiest girl in the world and so special. You treat me with the utmost respect that I deserve and I know you will make a phenomenal father to our children some day. You will love and support our family with all that you have, and for that I will never stop loving you in return.

Love,
Fox 

Sunday, May 10, 2015

May 9th

Dear Copper,

After church tonight, both families went out for Chinese food for dinner. Following dinner, we drove around for a while talking before heading back to watch Netflix and chill. During our conversation, I admitted to not feeling quite ready to commit. It's true, I'm not yet prepared to be engaged (and I don't think you are yet either), but at the same time I don't want you to ever doubt my love for you. I can't wait to call myself your fiancée and then your wife, but I want to have complete certainty that we will last forever first.

I have known you were my husband from one of our first few dates and can't imagine my life without you. I have seen you grow both in and out of our relationship over the past year I've known you and I am so blessed that you are the man I will (and even do now) call mine.

Even after hanging out, you suggested I just take your car home and return it in the morning. I put up a small stink of complaints (I apologize for all those in advance) about how it was dark, rainy, and late, but got into your car anyways since I knew it didn't make sense for you to drive. I was about to head off, and you came walking out and up to the driver's window and told me to get out of the car since you were driving me home. It's small moments like that, despite all stubbornness involved, that remind me I've picked a good one to last me a lifetime and that tell me that even through all qualms that come our way, we will still love each other.

Because I do, I love you.

Love, 
Fox

Friday, May 8, 2015

May 8th

Dear Copper,

Tonight I drove behind a car with the license plate FOX. It made me think of you ;)

Love,
Fox

Thursday, May 7, 2015

May 7th

Dear Copper,

Your expression whenever you look at me reminds me of how very loved I am and makes me feel like the most special girl in the world.

Love,
Fox

Wednesday, May 6, 2015

May 6th

Dear Copper,

Thanks for agreeing to watch one of my favorite movies with me tonight. And in case I haven't reminded you much lately, you're the best.

Love,
Fox

Tuesday, May 5, 2015

May 5th

Dear Copper,

Today we traded text messages back and forth (while at work) as to reasons we should buy a house in the next few months versus sharing an apartment for the next year and a half before making such a big purchase. I know you have the ring and are prepared to spend forever with me, and I'm sorry I'm too nervous right now to commit to a house at 100%. Obviously things could change in the next few weeks (or days), and looking back on this letter will probably make both of us laugh... What were we so nervous about anyways? I'll probably read this and think, "I wish we would've gotten the house." So maybe that's what we should do...

Most people take a year of dating to realize that they want to spend the rest of their lives with someone. We both knew before we could count our number of dates on one hand. We're pretty lucky like that.

"It's a little bit funny, this feeling inside... I'm not one of those who can easily hide... I don't have much money, but boy if I did... I'd buy a big house where we both could live..."

Love,
Fox 

Monday, May 4, 2015

May 4th

Dear Copper,

Someday soon we won't have to say goodbye at the end of the night...

Love,
Fox

Sunday, May 3, 2015

May 3rd

Dear Copper,

My life is infinitely better now that you are in it.

Love,
Fox

Saturday, May 2, 2015

May 2nd

Dear Copper,

You're out downtown drinking tonight while I stayed at home planning out my classes and a future budget. It seems like we should be opposites based on that sentence, but maybe that makes us a good match.

Love,
Fox

Friday, May 1, 2015

May 1st

Dear Copper,

People often feel depressed following "happy" events in their life, or big events like a wedding, buying a new car, moving/starting a new job, or having a baby. At some point in our relationship, you or I may feel this way. Know that no matter what comes our way, I will always love you. Even in times when I am caught up in negativity or when I have a difficult time expressing my love to you, know that I still value our relationship and am so thankful to have you in my life.

Love,
Fox

Thursday, April 30, 2015

April 30th

Dear Copper,

We're talking about buying a house or getting an apartment together soon (two very different choices, I know)... It's making me terribly nervous and terribly excited at the same time.

Love,
Fox

Wednesday, April 29, 2015

April 29th

Dear Copper,

I talk in circles and have a hard time making up my mind, and to be honest, it's not exactly something that is going to change any time soon. I apologize in advance for any agony it may cause you in the process. Of course, it isn't something that happens too often, so never mind that I even said anything...

See what I did there? ;)

Love,
Fox

Tuesday, April 28, 2015

April 28th

Dear Copper,

Thanks for always being so supportive of me, and my profession. Even when I start to become a bit jaded at work, you help me to eliminate the negativity and appreciate everything I do have.

Love,
Fox

Monday, April 27, 2015

April 27th

Dear Copper,

Last night you stayed over at my house and this morning I snuck into your bed to cuddle a little before you had to get ready for work. Best way to start my day, hands down.

Love,
Fox

Sunday, April 26, 2015

April 26th

Dear Copper,

You picked me up at the airport for the first time today after my trip. Hopefully in many of the trips to follow, you will be my travel partner ;)

Love,
Fox

Saturday, April 25, 2015

April 25th

Dear Copper,

I love having deep conversations and I love that you are one of the people I can share them with. Even on our first date, I knew you would be a keeper based on just our conversation.

Love,
Fox

April 24th

Dear Copper,

This weekend I am out of town and you are back in Columbia. It's strange how only seeing you on the weekend used to be the norm, and how now going a weekend without seeing you is hard. Makes me really appreciate you moving back so we could be together and see each other during the week :)

Love,
Fox

Thursday, April 23, 2015

April 23rd

Dear Copper,

Wish I could have packed you in my suitcase to bring with me this weekend... I'm going to miss you so much!

Love,
Fox

Wednesday, April 22, 2015

April 22nd

Dear Copper,

I love leaning back into you and having you wrap your arms around me. That's just the best.

Love,
Fox

Tuesday, April 21, 2015

April 21st

Dear Copper,

I love having you as a workout buddy. My favorite is walking into the gym and seeing you across the way and trying not to have a huge goofy grin on my face as I walk past you to put my stuff away in the locker room.

Love,
Fox

Monday, April 20, 2015

April 20th

Dear Copper,

I made my first home-cooked meal for you tonight, meatloaf and mashed potatoes (with some veggies and muffins, you know, because I'm that just that good of a cook). Almost makes me seem like wifey-material, huh? Anyways, hope it's the first of many meals I make with love for you to enjoy :)

Love,
Fox

Sunday, April 19, 2015

April 19th

Dear Copper,

We went to Six Flags to get our passes processed today and the only ride we went on before the rain was The Joker. You suggested we sit on opposite sides so we could see each other, and you sat next to this little girl in the back row. I saw you say something to her and point to me from across the way, and I just thought how I would have totally have had a crush on you when we were both that age. 

Even now, I'm 25 and have the biggest crush on you (which in grown-up speak translates to "I'm in love with you").

Love,
Fox

April 18th

Dear Copper,

Today when we were checking into a hotel, the concierge assumed we were married and called us Mr. and Mrs. I could definitely get used to that and it made me smile.

Then on our cab ride back from a night out, the driver asked where we were from. We both decided to ignore the fact we were locals and play the card that we were just visiting on vacation. "I was born in Texas and went to school in Indiana..." and "I went to school in Kansas and then lived in Alabama for a while..." and "then we just kinda met."  It's moments that that remind me of another reason I love you.

Love,
Fox

Friday, April 17, 2015

April 17th

Dear Copper,

I can't wait to have our own space together, just the two of us.

Love,
Fox

Thursday, April 16, 2015

April 16th

Dear Copper,

I can't wait to use the phrase, "... when we celebrated our 50 year anniversary..." 

Love, 
Fox

Wednesday, April 15, 2015

April 15th

Dear Copper,

I love absolutely every part of you, from your charming personality to that freckle on your right eyelid.

Love,
Fox

Tuesday, April 14, 2015

April 14th

Dear Copper,

If I saw you randomly at the gym, I would totally want you to ask for my number. What a stud.

Love,
Fox

Monday, April 13, 2015

April 13th

To my Kevin Arnold (Copper),

My happy place is cuddled under an electric blanket with you listening to the opening credits of The Wonder Years.

Love,
Your Winnie Cooper (Fox)

Sunday, April 12, 2015

April 12th

Dear Copper,

Tonight we were sitting at a table eating frozen yogurt talking about why we are so compatible and how we are a good match for one another. During our conversation, the man sitting next to us kept telling everyone passing by to have a good night and saying "hello" and "bye bye" repeatedly. We got into the car and started to drive away, upon which we both started analyzing the man's behaviors. You just looked at me and commented how that was one of the ways you knew we were a good fit. Strange situation to illustrate that we're compatible, but just one of many. 

Love,
Fox

April 11th

Dear Copper,

There are things I may question about our relationship every now and then, but your love for me will never be one of them.

Love,
Fox

Friday, April 10, 2015

April 10th

Dear Copper,

I love meeting people who knew you a long time ago... Because I feel like meeting your old friends allows me to not only be a part of your present and future, but also your past in a way as well.

Love,
Fox

Thursday, April 9, 2015

April 9th

Dear Copper,

Seeing you just at dinner doesn't cut it, I want some cuddle time too.

Love,
Fox

Wednesday, April 8, 2015

April 8th

Dear Copper,

Can't wait for those nights together cuddling on the couch listening to the rain fall...

Love,
Fox

Tuesday, April 7, 2015

April 7th

Dear Copper,

Writing this letter early since we're going to the Blues game tonight (my first NHL game)! Just a short note to let you know how much I love and appreciate you :)

Love,
Fox

Monday, April 6, 2015

April 6th

Dear Copper,

Seeing you is the best part of my day, hands down, even if it is only for a little while...

Love,
Fox

Sunday, April 5, 2015

April 5th

Dear Copper,

We've officially been together for all of the major holidays now... Halloween, Thanksgiving, Christmas, New Year's, Valentine's Day, and now Easter (well, I suppose we haven't spent a 4th of July with one another yet, so maybe that's still left). So blessed to have you in my life through not only the major celebrations, but also through all the days in between :)

Love,
Fox

Saturday, April 4, 2015

April 4th

Dear Copper,

Everyday with you is like a dream. But I'm awake. How cool is that?

Love,
Fox

Friday, April 3, 2015

April 3rd

Dear Copper,

Looking at the way you interact with our small dog makes me imagine how you will be with our kids someday. You're gonna be a great dad, I just know it.

Love,
Fox

Thursday, April 2, 2015

April 2nd

Dear Copper,

All I want right now is to cuddle up next to you and listen to the rain fall...

Love,
Fox

Wednesday, April 1, 2015

Tuesday, March 31, 2015

March 31st

Dear Copper,

You're the best teammate I could have ever asked for. 

Love,
Fox

Monday, March 30, 2015

March 30th

Dear Copper,

I'm sorry for all those times I don't show you enough just how much I love you. Know that for each of those times I don't display my affection for you, there is also another moment of me silently staring at you across a room thinking how much I want you, or a moment of looking into your eyes across a table remembering how much you mean to me. 

Love,
Fox

Sunday, March 29, 2015

March 29th

Dear Copper,

I really am so blessed to have you in my life. A year ago, I remember standing in church saying a prayer that God would help find me someone to love and to cure my loneliness, and a few months later he brought me to you. I am so lucky that I not only found you, but also that you love me so much in return. I just can't express how happy you make me feel.

Love,
Fox

March 28th

Dear Copper,

Falling asleep in your arms... Zzzzzzz...

Love,
Fox

Friday, March 27, 2015

March 27th

Dear Copper,

Tonight we went on an Easter Egg hunt together at my childhood park. You found one of the "special" eggs, winning a beer pong set and I took away 13 pieces of chocolate. The hunt itself was alright, but randomly running into you twice over the course of the hunt might have been my favorite part. 200 people wandering around a large area and I find you... twice. I may not have found any special eggs or had enough luck to win any prizes tonight, but I am pretty lucky to have found someone as special as you, even through billions of people.

Love,
Fox

Thursday, March 26, 2015

March 26th

Dear Copper,

Thanks for always supporting me and comforting me when I need it, it's one of the many reasons I love you so much.

Love,
Fox

Wednesday, March 25, 2015

March 25th

Dear Copper,

Today we went on our first run together at the park before having dinner at my house and driving back to your house to drop off your mom's car (your headlights ended up working after all). On the drive back, you expressed how you sometimes doubt our relationship. You should never really doubt my love and affection for you. I may not always show it as much as I should, but know I care for you more than you will ever realize.

Love,
Fox

Tuesday, March 24, 2015

March 24th

Dear Copper,

I'm glad that you love me and treat me with respect, it means more than you'll ever know.

Love,
Fox

Monday, March 23, 2015

March 23rd

Dear Copper,

I appreciate you loving me for exactly who I am, type A personality and all.

Love,
Fox

Sunday, March 22, 2015

March 22nd

Dear Copper,

After church this morning we went mini golfing together for the first time... It was a beautiful day outside and it was nice going on a fun date with the man I love. 

We later went to watch the KU game at Buffalo Wild Wings and you insisted on wearing your dad's Mizzou hat (and then pajama pants when we went back to your house, soccer was on the big screen at the restaurant). Even with your tacky black and gold paraphernalia, I'm pretty happy to call you mine. Seriously, what did I do to deserve a stud of sweetheart like you?!

Love,
Fox

March 21st

Dear Copper,

I can't wait to spend the rest of my life with you. Oh, and cuddling with you was the best part of my day.

Love,
Fox

Friday, March 20, 2015

March 20th

Dear Copper,

You have the sweetest smile, you know that? I always look at the pictures of you above my dresser and melt every time I see you.

Love,
Fox

Thursday, March 19, 2015

March 19th

Dear Copper,

Tonight we celebrated my dad's birthday over at my Nana's... your Star Wars/blow out the candles card was a hit, and you even helped to do dishes after dinner. We came home, and my mom said you definitely were a "keeper." Well duh, I knew that already (happy to know others feel the same way)!

Love,
Fox

Wednesday, March 18, 2015

March 18th

Dear Copper,

I will always have stuff to do on my "to-do" list and will be a busy bee... But no matter how important I make any of them seem, nothing comes before you.

Love,
Fox

Tuesday, March 17, 2015

March 17th

Dear Copper,

Who needs me lucky charms when I luckily have you to charm me...?

Love,
Fox

Monday, March 16, 2015

March 16th

Dear Copper,

I'm sorry in advance for all of those times when I am insensitive to your feelings or say things that come across the wrong way. Know that I love you so much and would do anything for you!

Love,
Fox

Sunday, March 15, 2015

March 15th

Dear Copper,

Tonight I met more of your extended family (the ones in St. Louis/KC) at your cousin's cooking show viewing party. I know it may not seem like that big of a deal to you introducing me, but I've never met a boyfriend's extended family before. It makes me feel special that you not only thought to invite me to the get together, but also that you feel I am important enough to meet more of the people you love. I truly am so lucky to have you in my life.

P.S. Can't wait to fill "My Adventure Book" with all of the memories we are going to have... 

Love,
Fox

March 14th

Dear Copper,

I appreciate the fact that you trust me with both your heart and car, it means a lot. Also, you can never get a stick shift. 

Love,
Fox

Friday, March 13, 2015

March 13th

Dear Copper,

You would make for a good partner on the Amazing Race... You're good with directional skills, keep your cool in high stress situations, think fast on your feet, and interact well with basically everyone. And all those reasons are part of why I love you.

Love,
Fox

Thursday, March 12, 2015

March 12th

Dear Copper,

I like working out with you, it motivates me. I'm all like, "I have to impress the cute guy on the row machine!"

Love,
Fox

Wednesday, March 11, 2015

March 11th

Dear Copper,

I kinda like this whole "us seeing each other mid-week" thing. It's nice.

Love,
Fox

Tuesday, March 10, 2015

March 10th

Dear Copper,

I really can't picture myself with anyone other than you. You're just such a good match for me.

Love,
Fox

Monday, March 9, 2015

March 9th

Dear Copper,

I just wanted to say that I love you so much and can't wait to be a part of your family. Looking forward to the day when our last names match :)

Love,
Fox

Sunday, March 8, 2015

March 8th

Dear Copper,

Thanks for helping make my 25th birthday so special... From taking care of me in the morning (making sure I had a warm blanket, my favorite Gatorade, and a banana after our adventures last night) to spending time with my family at night to celebrate my birthday. I love you so much and couldn't have made a better wish on my 24th birthday than to have found you. I truly am so lucky... Here's to our love lasting until I am 95!

Love,
Fox

March 7th

Dear Copper,

I meant to write this letter earlier/before going out for my birthday celebration and forgot. Anyways, I heard this song this morning and it made me think of you...

It's called "Best Thing" by Anthem Lights:


(You're getting impatient that I'm wasting time on my phone as you watch me type this... Guess I'll stop, haha)

Love,
Fox 

Friday, March 6, 2015

March 6th

Dear Copper,

We've hit the point where you're in the process of typing something and I text you first with the same thing you were going to text me. See, now this is why we're so compatible.


Love,
Fox

Thursday, March 5, 2015

March 5th

Dear Copper,

You're my favorite person to spend time with. I love talking with you about our days on the phone, Skyping with you before bed, or my person favorite, cuddling up on the couch watching Netflix with a few blankets. I just love being around you!

Love,
Fox

Wednesday, March 4, 2015

March 4th

Dear Copper,

I love that you know exactly what I like. It means you actually take the time to listen to what I say. Everything from knowing what to get me for Christmas to giving me ideas I might like to help celebrate this weekend... You just get me.

Love,
Fox 

Tuesday, March 3, 2015

March 3rd

Dear Copper,

Thanks for helping plan out my special birthday celebration with me this year :)

Love,
Fox

Monday, March 2, 2015

March 2nd

Dear Copper,

Today was a huge step forward in our relationship... No more long distance! It was a Monday night (read: work night) and we were able to have dinner together before watching Psych. Looking forward to more nights like this where I can see you mid-week (and before we know it, we'll be even closer than a 30 minute drive away)... :)

Love,
Fox

Sunday, March 1, 2015

March 1st

Dear Copper,

Tomorrow you move back to St. Louis. I can't believe it, after doing long distance for so long, we will finally be in the same city! I'm just so so excited to have you closer to me during the middle of the week and not just on Saturdays and Sundays!

Love,
Fox

Saturday, February 28, 2015

February 28th

Dear Copper,

You're really doing this. You've officially quit your job in Fulton, are leaving your roommates behind in Columbia, and will be moving two hours East to start a new job on Monday. And to think, this is all so you can be closer to me. You have no idea how much that all means to me, and I can't express how lucky I am that you are willing to uproot your current life so that we can start our future together. Can't wait to show you how it's going to be one of the best decisions of your life!

"Because when you realize what you want for the rest of your life, you want the rest of your life to start as soon as possible."

Love,
Fox

Friday, February 27, 2015

February 27th

Dear Copper,

Today the whole "dress" visual perception/image trend happened today. You see it as white and gold and I see it as blue and gold. Other people apparently don't see gold at all, but rather with black stripes (weirdos). We may not always agree eye to eye (literally in this case) on things, but that isn't always a bad thing. Sometimes it's those different perspectives that help make the world (or in this case, our relationship) so great.

Love,
Fox

Thursday, February 26, 2015

February 26th

Dear Copper,

I am beyond ecstatic about the fact you will no longer be at risk of being attacked at work. You have no idea what a huge relief it is for me to know you will be in a safe work environment come Monday. I can't have anything happening to you, I need you in my life too much!

Love,
Fox

Wednesday, February 25, 2015

February 25th

Dear Copper,

Tonight you sent me this picture via text:


We then spent the next few minutes texting back and forth about whether or not we should splurge and make the big purchase.

This. This is why I love you and know we are right for one another.

Love,
Fox

Tuesday, February 24, 2015

February 24th

Dear Copper,

So since we've been doing long-distance I've had this countdown app on my phone with an event for the next time I will see you... It's currently at 3 days. Crazy to think that on Saturday I will no longer have to continually update the event, but will finally be able to delete it. After all, if I want to see you, you'll only be a short phone call/drive away (and hopefully soon after even closer than that)! Can't wait!

Love,
Fox

Monday, February 23, 2015

February 23rd

Dear Copper,

We're officially going on our first trip together! Today we booked our flights, hotel, and tickets for Disneyland in September! Looking forward to our first big adventure with one another :)

Love,
Fox 

February 22nd

Dear Copper,

I really appreciated you reading through my grad school application/information tonight and helping me to feel more confident before I send it all in. I love how much support you give me in everything I take on, and it means more to me than you will ever know.

Love,
Fox

Saturday, February 21, 2015

February 21st

Dear Copper,

We are such a good match for each other. It may not always seem like it at times, but I know that you bring out the best in me and I in you.

Love,
Fox

Friday, February 20, 2015

February 20th

Dear Copper,

While working out tonight at the gym, the guy next to me had on the same deodorant/body wash as you... The smell made me miss you. Last time hopefully for a while that we'll have to go two weeks not seeing each other!

Love,
Fox 

Thursday, February 19, 2015

February 19th

Dear Copper,

I appreciate you being honest and upfront with me, it means a lot.

Love,
Fox

Wednesday, February 18, 2015

February 18th

Dear Copper,

There's no one else I would rather do life with than you.

Love,
Fox

Tuesday, February 17, 2015

Monday, February 16, 2015

February 16th

Dear Copper,

Today we slept in, worked out together for the first time, and got Chinese food after your drug test (you know, cause you're MOVING BACK IN TWO WEEKS!). Then we ended the night by cuddling up with Gigi on my bed (it was adorable). I had a wonderful day with you and couldn't have imagined anything better. So blessed to be able to have spent such good quality time with the man I love! Too cheesy? I hope not...

Love,
Fox

P.S. If I was on The Bachelorette, you would have been my final pick every time. Now the cheesy factor has reached its limit ;)