The Final Letter

Dear Daniel,

You do know why I wrote all these letters, don't you? I wanted you to know that there was not a single day of my adult life that went by that I did not think of you. No, I didn't always have a face or name to pair with my thoughts, but even that simple lack of knowledge could not keep you from my mind. Most of my letters were written right before bed not just for consistency, but because I always wanted you to be the last person I thought about before falling asleep at night. Dreams are often processed most poignantly with the things we think about right before we fall asleep, so I guess in a way that makes you the man... er, Dan of my dreams, huh? I have always loved you, I love you now, and I will continue to love you all the days of my life.

I have waited a long time to marry you and to finally become your wife and I am so lucky that the big day is finally here. Oh, and in case you had any doubts before today, here are 1500+ letters to you with love from me, saying simply,

I love you.

Love,
Kirsten (2013)

May 6th (The Wedding Day Letter)

Dear Copper,

I once heard that marriage is not a noun, but a verb. Love is not something that you get, but is something that you do each and every day. It requires an ongoing commitment of 24 hours a day, 365 days a year, for the rest of your life.

Looking back on these past two years together, I can't help but think of all that you have done for me, and the ways you have made me feel. I not only want you in my life, but need you in my life.

I remember moments like you making me hot tea in the morning when I was sick (despite just working an overnight yourself), and letting me reach over on to your plate of French fries to grab one without even asking. You tell me that I am beautiful when I have no makeup on, and challenge me to think outside the box, all while supporting me along the way. 

I remember the endless hours on end of you listening to me tell you about my day at work, and I think back to you doing all those little things to make me happy, like fixing the towel rack in my bathroom or giving me back rubs at night.

I appreciate you tolerating all of my bad jokes and for putting up with my love of puns. You consistently let me know you love me, and when I am with you, it always feels like I am at home.

I have watched you give and care for others, including your friends, family, or those you barely know. The day we closed on our house, I watched as you gave money to a homeless man on the street to help pay it forward.

You may think I've let all these things go unnoticed, but I can guarantee that they have all meant the world to me and reassured me that you are the man I am to spend the rest of my life with, loving until the day I take my final breath.

So today on our wedding day, I take you to be my best friend, my faithful partner, and the one that I love forever and always. I promise to encourage, challenge, and inspire you to be the best version of yourself if you will do the same for me. I agree to love you through it all, no matter what comes our way, good or bad. I will always be there to make you smile and laugh with you, or to just listen and lift you up when you are down.

I promise to love you unconditionally through all our adventures together on this journey called life. I will continue to love you all of the days of my life, and that is something that will never change. We are going to be the old couple sitting on a park bench holding hands together, just you wait and see.

Love,

Fox

May 5th

Dear Copper,

It's strange, I started off writing these letters to someone I couldn't picture or name, but knew I would deeply love and care for. They were going to someone I couldn't picture my life without and someone who helped make my life seem more full. They were going to you.

I have written them every day for over the last three years, and in some weird way I am going to miss telling you in writing how much I love you, as that is usually how I best express my thoughts and affections toward others. At the same time, how lucky am I that before bed every night, I no longer will have to type out a note to tell you I love you, but that I will be able to reach over, give you a quick hug or smooch and tell you "I love you." For so long, the last thing I saw at night were words about how much I love you, but now you will actually be able to hear me say it.

These typed love letters may be coming to an end, but I promise to never stop loving you and to remind you of it each and every day. I just love you so much. I can't even begin to put into words how much it means to have you in my life. I am one of the luckiest girls in the world to become your wife this weekend. It just doesn't get much better than a lifetime of love with you!

Love,

Fox

May 4th

Dear Copper,

You're out mowing our lawn right now, so figured I would take this moment to write you your daily letter now instead of tonight when I usually do... I just walked in and saw the fox picture you bought for me on the kitchen table. I love it :) Can't believe it is less than 3 days until we will be married!!!! Ahhhhhhh!

Love,

Fox

May 3rd

Dear Copper,

Tonight we were on the phone and you were able to guess exactly what I was eating at the time based on my food crunching... I think this means you know me. Haha

Also, one day closer to our wedding and being husband and wife! Ahhhhhhh! It's just so soon! 

Love,

Fox

May 2nd

Dear Copper,

So today I had people tell me that I have white teeth, the weather is going to be nice Saturday, I look more tan, and that living with boys is hard, along with asking me how excited I am. You'd swear we were getting married soon or something.

I just still can't wrap my head around it... I know we will be husband and wife at the end of the week, but it just still hasn't really hit me yet. We are getting married. Like forever and always. Somehow those words are absolutely terrifying and thoroughly exciting at the same time. Like, for real, we are getting married. We are getting married this year in fact. More specifically, this month. Even this week. In a few days one might say. And this means we will be together for a lot of years. And even more months. And a lot of weeks. And too many days to even count... This is all really happening! You are going to be my forever-and-always husband by the end of the week!

Love,

Fox

May 1st

Dear Copper,

First of all, it's officially the month and week of our wedding. I'm not exactly sure where the time even went... it feels like just yesterday that we were sitting at the dinner table at Mike Duffy's talking about whether or not you saw yourself ever moving back to St. Louis.

That aside, I'm currently sitting alone at our house with no sound... you aren't here with the television on, you aren't here to give me a hug, you aren't here to tell me how your day was or talk with me, and it's just... quiet. And this, my dear, is exactly why I need you in my life. Without you, my life would be empty, silent, and longing for social interaction and a deep connection with another person. I know people are close to me and I have friends, but somehow I kind of feel lonely right now in this quiet house alone. Thanks for making sure I never become the sad old lady who lives alone playing the radio all the time for company, and for always making me feel loved. Can't wait to be your wife and have a built-in best friend for life... less than 6 days now!

Love,
Fox

April 30th

Dear Copper,

We're getting married exactly one week from today, and I still can't even believe it's already this soon. It seems like just yesterday we had our first date! Crazy how time flies when you're having fun. Less than one more week until I am officially your wife!

Love,

Fox

April 29th

Dear Copper,

Smooches! Muah, muah, muah! 

Love,

Fox

April 28th

Dear Copper,

I will always stress about things, and you will always remind me that most of it doesn't really matter. It's frustrating at times, but also one of the reasons I need you.

Love,

Fox

April 27th

Dear Copper,

I love you to the moon and back!

Love,

Fox

April 26th

Dear Copper,

It's a good thing you're good at reading how to put together book shelves and stuff... Things I never have the patience to complete.

Love,

Fox

April 25th

Dear Copper,

You're just so giving :)

Love,

Fox

April 24th

Dear Copper,

We have our last wedding shower this afternoon... Can't believe it's getting so close! Only 13 more days until the wedding!

P.S. Our teeth-brushing habits make us perfect for one another.

Love,

Fox

April 23rd

Dear Copper,

When you came home tonight and gave me a kiss, I got butterflies :)

Love,

Fox

April 22nd

Dear Copper,

The seating chart for our wedding is officially complete! Looking forward to having all of our friends and families in the same place at the same time!

Love,

Fox

April 21st

Dear Copper,

Let's just elope. I'm getting too stressed with of all this wedding planning! All we need is you and me along with a marriage license, officiant, and witnesses... Right?

Love,

Fox

April 20th

Dear Copper,

A hug from you is the best part of my day.

Love,

Fox

April 19th

Dear Copper,

Looking forward to all the good morning kisses I will get before I go to work and all the goodnight kisses I will get before falling asleep... 

Love,

Fox

April 18th

Dear Copper,

It was a huge help today when you picked up my keys from the auto shop while I watched my lecture. It's little things like that to help remind me how sweet you are :)

Love,

Fox

April 17th

Dear Copper,

It's Sunday, but we both woke up at 6:15 this morning to the curious noise outside our house (one of these days we WILL figure out what it is). After laying there for a while, we decided to just get ready and go to IHOP for breakfast (not brunch, it was before 8 a.m.) before we came back to the house to relax some. You put some jazzy piano going on your phone through the speaker and we had our windows open letting the breeze blow in from outside (beautiful weather this morning). We got all snuggled up on the couch, and I just wanted the moment to keep going. Lucky that I have so many more moments just like that to look forward to with you in the future!

Love,

Fox

April 16th

Dear Copper,

Just thought you should know how much I care about you.

Love,

Fox

April 15th

Dear Copper,

You're at our house watching the Blues game right now, and sent me this text: 

Which is absolutely adorable, seeing as you thought to correct "here" and not the fact that I'm technically not yet your wife... Hehe :) At any rate, glad you are already comfortable using my new title in a few weeks!

Love,

Fox

April 14th

Dear Copper,

I had my wedding hair trial tonight and my hairdresser was talking about her love life and upcoming first date with a new guy she met online. She commented that it seemed like there weren't many good guys left out there, and after listening to her stories, I am so thankful I found one!

Love,

Fox

April 13th

Dear Copper,

It's my first night at home alone in our new house, and all I want is you next to me. Somehow seeing the picture of the two of us you put in the closet helps me feel a bit better, though...

Love,

Fox

April 12th

Dear Copper,

I need your chill and laid-back personality, even when it drives me crazy. 

Love,

Fox

April 11th

Dear Copper,

When in doubt of what music we should listen to together, it should be Coldplay, One Republic, Guster, or the ever popular "space music."

Love,

Fox

April 10th

Dear Copper,

You help make everything alright.

Love,

Fox

April 9th

Dear Copper,

I've officially started moving my stuff over to our house to make it start feeling more like a home. Today was our first grocery shopping/trip to Target together, which I would say went pretty well. We came home and you started grilling some brats on our deck. Looking out the window at you, I just felt so lucky to be your future wife. Love you!

Love,

Fox

April 8th

Dear Copper,

Looking forward to all of the memories we are going to make together over the years. 

Love,

Fox

April 7th

Dear Copper,

We have less than a month until our wedding, which is absolutely crazy to think. I finally ordered your ring today, so you should have that bad boy on your finger in no time (and by that I mean 6-8 weeks, haha)! 

Anyways, I have this patient at the hospital right now who has dementia. He doesn't know the month or year, and couldn't even remember his birth year correctly, but I'll be darned if his wife's name wasn't spot on when the doctor asked him. I pray that neither of us will have such a memory deficit, but I do hope we are together long enough that I will remember your name over the year I was born.

Love,

Fox

April 6th

Dear Copper,

All I want is a good hug and some mindful cuddles right now. Which means I need you, since you are the best mindful cuddle buddy I know! 

Love,

Fox

April 5th

Dear Copper,

I really appreciate you letting me bitch about work, rambling on and on... I felt 10x better after we had dinner together tonight.

Love,

Fox

April 4th

Dear Copper,

I "fake proposed" to you tonight with the ring you will wear the day of the wedding (you're actual ring won't be here in time)! You put it on to try the size and didn't want to take it off. No worries, babe... you'll have a ring on your finger for good soon!

Love,
Fox

April 3rd

Dear Copper,

We are a good match. Right now, I can still sleep in a bed by myself, but someday soon I will need you next to me to fall asleep. I can't wait.

Love,

Fox

April 2nd

Dear Copper,

"Yeeeeeep. Buttttttttt."

Words/phrases that should only be used with your bros. Have a fun bachelor party tonight!

Love,

Fox

April 1st

Dear Copper,

We finished painting our dining formal room together today and then went out for dinner at the sketchy bar & grill down the street after... Excited to be on this journey called life with you as my best friend :)

Love,

Fox

March 31st

Dear Copper,

I want you to picture that little boy and girl emoji holding hands or kissing (👫 and 💏 if you're reading this letter on a phone).That's us.

Love,

Fox

March 30th

Dear Copper,

Sometimes we just need to stop and look each other in the eyes for a few moments...

Love,

Fox

March 29th

Dear Copper,

"All great change is proceeded by chaos."

Never again do I hope that we experience this much chaos all at once in our relationship. It's rough. That being said, I know this is going to make us stronger. It's like an arrow being pulled backward... It's tight with a lot of stress forced upon it, but must first undergo such a state before being catapulted into something great.

And as husband and wife, we're going to be something great.

Love,

Fox

March 28th

Dear Copper,

Our day started out a little rough at our counseling session, but started to feel a little better tonight when we (read: you, my dad, and your dad) were moving furniture. Sometimes, all it takes is just a good hug and the reassurance that "we will be alright" to know that love will get us through.

Love,

Fox

March 27th

Dear Copper,

Well, we officially picked out all music for our wedding tonight :)

Love,

Fox

March 26th

Dear Copper,

I love you more than I love Jayhawk basketball in March.

Love,
Fox

March 25th

Dear Copper,

If I knew you when we were kids, your name would have been all over my notebooks... ;)

Love,

Fox

March 24th

Dear Copper,

You are in the other room prepping our dining/formal room for paint tomorrow while I am in the living room working on my neuro lab (well, currently writing you this letter)... You're listening to movie music (Hunger Games, I think) and I just can't help but feel at peace knowing that this will soon be home. Leaving work, sitting down for dinner together, and getting to see you every night before bed. I can't wait to marry you :)

Love,

Fox

March 23rd

Dear Copper,

We're both struggling with "cold feet" right now. It's not that we don't love each other, it's just that the stress of buying a house and getting married is starting to take its toll on our emotional limits. Despite any hesitations or feelings of stress we may have, at the end of the day, we know that each are going to do whatever it takes to make this relationship and marriage work. And if struggling over this speed bump is what it takes to make us stronger, then full speed ahead!

Love,

Fox

March 22nd

Dear Copper,

Bless your heart for spending ALL day prepping and spackling our basement with my dad today while I was at work. It's going to look great, I just know it! Can't wait to see all your hard work when you get it all done :)

Love,
Fox

March 21st

Dear Copper,

WE ARE OFFICIALLY HOMEOWNERS!!! As of 10 am this morning after signing our final paperwork and being handed over the keys to the house, we finally have our own place to call home! On our way to get the cashiers check, we passed a homeless man on the street collecting change by the stoplight. You waved him over, got out your wallet and passed him a few dollars from inside. He smiled in return and thanked you for the help. In your words, with us on our way to get a house, it was good karma to pay it forward. This is why I absolutely love you and can't wait to not only live with you, but also be your wife.

Also, we both apparently have really good taste in couches and beds, since we seemed to agree on almost every piece of furniture in the stores we saw. Despite feeling stressed or overwhelmed while shopping, it was fun getting to lay on all the different mattresses and gawk at all of the gaudy furnishings together that we saw in the stores (wooden horse head, anyone?). It made me really feel like an old (well, soon-to-be) married couple.

Love,
Fox

March 20th

Dear Copper,

We had our Precana conference today where we went over our personal inventory responses and watched marriage/relationship videos. Possible strengths in our relationship were communication, family & friends, relationship roles, sexual expectations, and spiritual growth while growth areas were conflict resolution, financial management, leisure activities, and partner style & habits. That being said, we at least both agreed on our expectation of marriage to be difficult and have challenges. 

Marriage isn't always going to be easy. At the same time, our realistic view on marriage and knowing the challenges we face while trying to make positive changes will help to strengthen our relationship as a couple in the long run. Can't wait to see over the years how our areas of growth all begin to change into areas of strength. Together as the "Leem Team," we will be able to do anything :)

Love,

Fox

March 19th

Dear Copper,

Tonight was our final walk through of our home. Man, was it surreal to know that in less than 48 hours that will be ours. Driving straight there after work today, it made me feel like I was just driving home to you on a typical weeknight. It was an awesome feeling to see the empty rooms and for the first time, it started to feel like ours.

It was also my Dad's birthday, and you agreed to give up your Saturday night watching the Blues game with your friends to go out to dinner with my family and watch the KU game after. You got my dad a joke book, and you could not have thought of a more thoughtful gift. After watching the game and opening gifts, it was just the two of us downstairs on the couch. I started to fall asleep sideways on your chest, and you pulled over a nearby pillow to help make me more comfortable.

I just love you and your thoughtful nature so much and I am beyond blessed to be your wife. Looking forward to not only living with you and going through the journey of being homeowners, but also to a lifetime of love together :)

Love,

Fox

March 18th

Dear Copper,

You are exactly the man I was meant to marry. You came into my life at just the right time and had so many of the qualities that I needed in my future spouse. Thanks for choosing me to be your #1 gal forever and always :) Love you!

Love,

Fox

March 17th

Dear Copper,

Can't wait for you to see me in my wedding dress walking down the aisle toward you all dressed up in your tux!

Love,

Fox

March 16th

Dear Copper,

I appreciate your reassurance when I need it the most.

Love,

Fox

March 15th

Dear Copper,

We filled out our Pre-Cana conference questionnaires tonight, and a few themes seemed to keep popping up throughout. So I'm sorry in advance for those times I am too critical, concerned about money, overly time-oriented, or resistant to change.

But no matter what comes our way, we will get through it all, together.

Love,

Fox

March 14th

Dear Copper,

We need to every so often read from one of those healthy relationship books we bought at the beginning of our marriage... It can never hurt to refresh our memories for things we should hear more than once.

Love,

Fox

March 13th

Dear Copper,

You have no idea how nice it was to just lounge around napping and watching The Wonder Years with you today. Other than the whole hungover from my bachelorette party thing, it was a nice and relaxing day with you.

Love,

Fox

March 12th

Dear Copper,

Writing your letter a little early today since my bachelorette party is tonight... Thanks for making sure that I will never be a bachelorette again ;)

Love,

Fox

March 11th

Dear Copper,

Cuddling on the couch with you was exactly what I needed all day.

Love,

Fox

March 10th

Dear Copper,

Having you in my life is like having an umbrella on a rainy day.

Love,

Fox

March 9th

Dear Copper,

I get to be your wife! I just can't believe it, I'm really going to marry you! And in less than two months! What lottery did I win to be this lucky? Ahhhhhh, I'm just so excited! :)

Love,

Fox

March 8th

Dear Copper,

Thanks for helping make my birthday so special this year. Beyond the other thoughtful gifts you gave me, I was most excited when you handed me our home occupancy permit! We're step closer to being able to see each other everyday!

Love,

Fox

March 7th

Dear Copper,

I love that you will go with me to see the newest Disney movie at 7:30 on a Monday night just because I've been wanting to see it (and because it's my birthday in a few hours). When I'm with you I feel like I am a kid again :)

Love,

Fox

March 6th

Dear Copper,

You are my happy ever after, forever and always.

Love,

Fox

March 5th

Dear Copper,

I appreciate the words of affirmation that you give me, they mean so much. 

Love,

Fox

March 4th

Dear Copper,

I had my wedding makeup trial tonight and then we had a special dinner planned at The Melting Pot after. My trial did not quite go as well as I would have liked, and before I could really even say anything, you made me feel better by saying that you liked it more when I did my own makeup than the professional. We then got to the restaurant, and I dropped my glove by the car before crossing the street. You made sure to run back across to get it for me before we went inside. Then at our table, the waiter brought us a rose you requested when you made our reservation. While at dinner/on the ride home, we talked about the Myers-Briggs personality types. You said you were going to take the test and I took a guess at what I thought you might be... Turns out you are in fact the two possible personality types that are most compatible with my two most likely personality types. 

So not only do I know you're the one because you compliment me, tell me I'm  beautiful, go out of your way to help me, and give me flowers, but also because science (well, psychology at least) says so.

Love,

Fox

March 3rd

Dear Copper,

When I think about my name, I just can't imagine myself having any other last name than yours. It just sounds and feels right.

Love,

Fox

March 2nd

Dear Copper,

Imma be honest, you drive me crazy at times... But I still love you and know you are the one that I want to spend the rest of my life with. That's how much I love you.

Love,

Fox

March 1st

Dear Copper,

I just want a hug and a kiss goodnight...

Love,

Fox

February 29th

Dear Copper,

In all these years, I'm pretty sure this is my first Leap Year love letter to you! Just a short note to say you make me incredibly hoppy :) Get it? Hoppy for Leap Year? Hehe

Love,

Fox

February 28th

Dear Copper,

Sweet dreams...

Love,

Fox

February 27th

Dear Copper,

You are my breath of fresh air from a long and stuffy week of working and thinking and doing and planning and completing and...

* you as my breath of fresh air *

Ahhhhhhh... relaxed.

Love,
Fox

February 26th

Dear Copper,

You're good for me. I appreciate you challenging my "stinky thinking."

Love,

Fox

February 25th

Dear Copper,

This afternoon I was working with a lady in the cancer center who remarked several times that she was lonely. She had gone through a divorce about 40 years prior and said that her one daughter was a doctor too busy for her. She gave me the wise advice to never live my life alone and without a spouse if I could help it. She said after her divorce, she was never able to find anyone else that she liked that liked her the same way in return. As a result, she lived most of her adult life alone.

In agreeing to marry you, I am agreeing to not only stick it out for the next 5, 10, or 15 years, but for as long as we are both still living. As our psychologist reminded us on Monday, the only two reasons a relationship should come to an end are drugs/alcohol or violence. Otherwise, ALL relationships are possible as long as both parties are willing to see it through until the end. 

So here we go, set to start our ALWAYS AND FOREVER marriage about 70 days from now...

Love,

Fox

February 24th

Dear Copper,

All those little things you do for me really mean a lot.

Love,

Fox

February 23rd

Dear Copper,

I will never get tired of telling you "I love you."

Love,

Fox

February 22nd

Dear Copper,

We had our first marriage counseling session this morning followed by some good couple time. Looking forward to our journey through life together with one another!

Love,

Fox

February 21st

Dear Copper,

This morning I woke up to you on my side of the bed with your head on my shoulder sleeping soundly. I just remember looking down and seeing you all peaceful and feeling so happy that I get to have so many more moments just like this one in the years to come. 

Love,

Fox

February 20th

Dear Copper,

You knowing that I would love the game Codenames is one of the reasons I know we are compatible. You get me.

Love,
Fox

February 19th

Dear Copper,

Seeing you is the best part of my entire day.

Love,
Fox

February 18th

Dear Copper,

You had your first counseling session today and I am so proud of you for pursuing your dreams! I love that despite already having a job that pays well that you still wanted to do something more fulfilling to give back and help others. It's one of the many reasons I love you.

Love,

Fox

February 17th

Dear Copper,

You're just so good for me and are everything I need, even if I don't know I need it.

Love,

Fox

February 16th

Dear Copper,

I was stuck when writing my discussion post for class tonight, so you helped give me some ideas to get me out of my writer's block and start typing away. Thanks for helping me, even through the phone!

Love,

Fox

February 15th

Dear Copper,

Well turns out Valparaiso home wasn't ours either... Hrumph. In other news, I had a wonderful Monday with you spent cuddling on the couch reading and watching Psych together. It made me feel so much better just being close to you today.

Love,

Fox

February 14th

Dear Copper,

You're upstairs scanning our final home contract paperwork (the time addendum) while I'm writing your love note for the day... You gave me such a sweet card and gifts (favor coupons, a giftcard, flowers, and sugar cookies... no chocolate!) and it was adorable. Thanks for making my Valentine's Day special and for making me feel like the luckiest girl in the world!

Love,

Fox

February 13th

Dear Copper,

Tonight we signed our contract on the "Valpo" home (finally)... here's hoping this one works out for us and we don't look back! I also bought my first manly article of clothing not for a family member... It made everything feel that much more real, making me feel like a wife shopping for her husband.

We're doing this, we're really getting married and buying a house! 

Love,

Fox

February 12th

Dear Copper,

I admire your giving spirit and loving demeanor.

Love,

Fox

February 11th

Dear Copper,

This morning I woke up to a sweet text message saying that you loved me and that you couldn't wait to spend your Valentine's Day with me as your future wife. It made my day :)

Love,

Fox

February 10th

Dear Copper,

Turns out the Valparaiso house was under contract already... Buh. I'm just so ready for us to find our future first home already!

Love,

Fox

February 9th

Dear Copper,

The other day you were talking about getting a brain poster for our future study... This is why I love you.

Love,

Fox

February 8th

Dear Copper,

We put in our offer on "Valpo" tonight... Here's hoping it is our last offer in the search for our first home! Short of its city location, it has everything we're pretty much looking for, down to my bay window in the kitchen and your wooded backyard. It's exactly how I pictured my first home and I'm really hoping it works out for the two of us this time around. I'm assuming the dime we found in the basement was a good sign...

Ahhhhhh! I'm just so excited!!!

Love,

Fox

February 7th

Dear Copper,

Watching me type... You're awesome!

Love,

Fox

February 6th

Dear Copper,

You walked up to my front door today, I took one look at you, and thought "Man oh man, am I lucky he's mine!"

Love,

Fox

February 5th

Dear Copper,

I love holding your hand.

Love,
Fox

February 4th

Dear Copper,

We saw each other today for the first time in 8 days after your trek back from the mountains. It was glorious.

Love,

Fox

February 3rd

Dear Copper,

You are my calm during the storm.

Love,

Fox

February 2nd

Dear Copper,

You've survived two days of real-life planes, trains, and automobiles, and I'm just glad you are okay. I love you too much to have you come back in anything more than one piece!

Love,

Fox

February 1st

Dear Copper,

You woke up at 4:30 this morning, have been up all day, and are finally on your train back from Colorado, but you're sitting next to a man who admitted going to prison. You said you don't think you can sleep next to him, and unfortunately can't move seats. I'm anxious for you and feel exhausted just thinking about it. This is how I know I love you so much, my feelings are starting to reflect yours.

Love,

Fox

January 31st

Dear Copper,

Your flight from Colorado to St. Louis was cancelled due to snow... So now you're taking Amtrak to get home. It's reassuring to know that if I were with you, I would be freaking out while you were all excited about having an "adventure." 

Love,

Fox

January 30th

Dear Copper,

All I want right now are cuddles... And you're all the way in Colorado. Wish I was there with you, all snuggled under the covers by the mountains...

Love,

Fox

January 29th

Dear Copper,

One of my patients today gave me the marriage advice of never going to bed angry and always holding hands... Can't wait to grow old with you.

Love,

Fox

January 28th

Dear Copper,

Only 100 days until our wedding!

Love,

Fox

January 27th

Dear Copper,

Tonight was one of those nights where I hugged you and just didn't want to let go.

Love,

Fox

January 26th

Dear Copper,

Love you to the moon and back.

Love,

Fox

January 25th

Dear Copper,

We were laying on the couch today, me studying and you taking a nap with your head in my lap. It was the best part of my day, looking down and seeing you so peaceful and all snuggled up next to me.

Love,

Fox

January 24th

Dear Copper,

You're handsome, even when disheveled after working a 12-hour shift and barely having slept.

Love,

Fox

January 23rd

Dear Copper,

I spent about 4 hours working on your "project" tonight... And then the Internet lost all of my hard work.

Luckily I have you to help me feel better when I am frustrated.

Love,

Fox

January 22nd

Dear Copper,

The last Strawberry house bit the dust today... It's pending/off the market, so we are back to square one of our house search. Buh. All I want to do is live with you already!

Love,

Fox

January 21st

Dear Copper,

I love everything about you... Even the face and sounds you make when eating something you really enjoy.

Also, tonight we were sitting by the fire at my parents' house studying (we have dropped our most recent home contract) when I looked over at you reading your book. I said I felt old and pictured the two of us reading together with gray hair and it made me smile.

Love,

Fox

January 20th

Dear Copper,

I would have been quite lonely without you, so much to the point where I could have been a crazy cat lady with 18 cats. And I'm allergic to cats.

That's how much I need you in my life.

Love,

Fox

January 19th

Dear Copper,

"Eye luv ewe."

Because I apparently couldn't think of anything else more clever for tonight's note... My brain is fried from studying.

Love,

Fox

January 18th

Dear Copper,

I started my new semester today and I'm already feeling stressed. But thinking of you and time with you makes me feel so much better, so that's what I'm imagining before bed tonight... Being wrapped up in your arms and watching an episode on Netflix, just taking it easy. Even just the thought of it helps me feel more relaxed.

Love,

Fox

January 17th

Dear Copper,

You're the perfect combination of nerdy and cool.

Love,

Fox

January 16th

Dear Copper,

Giving you a back scratch right now... ;)

Love,

Fox

January 15th

Dear Copper,

As my patient today reminded me, the key to a happy marriage can be found in two words: "Yes, dear."

Love,
Fox

January 14th

Dear Copper,

You're good to have around in emergency situations.

Love,

Fox

January 13th

Dear Copper,

We met up for dinner tonight before you went to work and I head home from work... Gotta enjoy those moments while we can, soon  I'll just come home to see you! ;)

Love,

Fox

January 12th

Dear Copper,

We still have a lot of learning to do about one another... And while it may seem bad or frustrating at times, it's actually a good thing. Can't wait to keep getting to know you!

Love,

Fox

January 11th

Dear Copper,

We had our home inspection today (that seemed to go fairly well) before we met with our loan officer to sign all the financial papers needed for our big purchase. Finally, we topped off our day with a FroYo date followed by a few episodes of Psych... Such a good day together! :)

Love,

Fox

January 10th

Dear Copper,

I specifically looked at pictures of you before bed tonight because I wish I was with you right now. You are just so handsome!

Love,
Fox

January 9th

Dear Copper,

I'm currently working on your wedding gift right now and as such am reading back through these letters (for the first time ever). It's actually been an interesting experience... I must really love you or something, I say that like over and over and over again in all these letters!

Love,
Fox

January 8th

Dear Copper,

We drove by "our" house tonight (to see if the water was on for our inspection Monday)... That's right, we are officially listed on the Maris matrix as being "under contract!" Contingent with no kick out! We are a pending sale! 

Can you tell I'm excited? This is really happening!

Love,

Fox

January 7th

Dear Copper,

It's not that I don't trust your judgment or ability to get things done... It's just that I'm a perfectionist and will double and triple check even my own work. 

Love,

Fox

January 6th

Dear Copper,

I keep waiting and waiting to see when our house will change from "Active" to "Pending." The anticipation is killing me. I just want to start moving my stuff in and making it ours ASAP!

Love,
Fox

January 5th

Dear Copper,

Signed and accepted our counteroffer today, which means we are officially HOMEOWNERS!

Love,

Fox

January 4th

Dear Copper,

Big things today... We signed our offer on house #4, the 5-bedroom/2.5 bath on Braebridge... so much space! I also tried on my own wedding dress for the first time today before our food tasting at the venue (the chicken was awesome). And as if that all weren't enough, KU won 109-106 in 3OT tonight (you agreed to cheer for them during basketball season, especially after tonight)!

Lots of good things! Lucky to share them all with you :)

Love,

Fox

January 3rd

Dear Copper,

I really appreciated you helping me to mail my old textbook today and for setting it all up through Amazon in the first place. It may not have seemed all that difficult to you, but really helped me feel less stressed :)

Love,

Fox

January 2nd

Dear Copper,

Today I put together our wedding website, complete with the story of how we met and with the pennies/foxes. It was fun reliving and reaffirming why I know I love you so much :)

Love,

Fox

January 1st

Dear Copper,

We get married this year!

Love,
Fox